!!! "COsmIC DaNcE OF SHiVA" !!!

मेरी कवितायेँ : अस्तित्व का संघर्ष

2009-10-15T02:35:00.004-05:00

हृदय को निराशा की घटाओं ने घेरा है ,

दीया हो गया जरुरी चारों और अँधेरा है !

इस अँधेरे को चीरकर आशा की किरण दिखती है
परन्तु अपना गंतव्य मिलने में बहुत देर लगती है !

कहीं मेरा अस्तित्व खो न जाए इन अंधेरों में

प्रेरणा मिलती है सागर की लहरों में !

जिस तरीके से ये लहरें बाधाये तोड़ जाती है

उसी तरह संघर्ष से सफलता मिल जाती है !

जो नहीं पकड़ पाता सही अवसर का हाथ

जो नहीं सुन पाता अपने हृदय की बात !

वो मनुष्य प्रगति के पथ से विचलित हो जाता है

उसका अस्तित्व उसे धिक्कारता है जो संघर्ष नहीं कर पाता है !!

"भूमिपुत्र "

मेरी कविताये : कसक

2009-10-09T11:27:00.003-05:00

ऊपर से बस चमक रहा है , अन्दर सब कुछ बिखर रहा है
मेरे मन की इस हालत को , कोई क्यूँ नही समझ रहा है !

ख्वाब सुहाने दिखा के मुझको , छोड़ गया गहरी नींद में शायद
आँख खुली है फ़िर भी दिल क्यूँ , दीदार को उसके तरस रहा है !

छूकर तो देखता कभी वो , अहसास उसे फ़िर होता शायद ,
जमी हुयी इस बर्फ के नीचे, एक अंगारा दहक रहा है !

जाना ही था छोड़ के उसको , मैंने ग़लत समझा था शायद ,
उसकी यादों की प्यासी जमीं पे , आंखों का सावन बरस रहा है !!

"भूमिपुत्र "

ET Prodigy 2009: Case Study and My Solution

2009-10-06T22:55:00.005-05:00

ET Prodigy is doing a great service for all of us young ordinary Indians by letting us participate in such events. Competitions like this are common norms outside India but I must congratulate ET for democraticisng this big event for us. The case study may look simple in first glance but as you dig deeper you will find that its very challenging one and you really have to thibnk out of box if you want to give proper solution. I tried my best and waiting for the restults to be announced. I know there will be lots of people with good ideas but with my limited knowledge I could come up with mine. So I am just having my fingers crossed.. Here is the case study..

Case Brief:
Arvind Apte is employed at an Infrastructure consulting firm in a senior position. He has been involved in multiple projects with International financial and labour organizations; focused towards creating more inclusive and sustainable growth in India. Apte has identified the potential for a viable business model catering to this space, and understands the need to contribute directly towards these initiatives. Apte has hence decided to resign from his present job and start an organization that will create social impact. Today at his farewell dinner, his colleagues kept probing him about his new enterprise. As he was driving back, Apte felt that he had not given enough thought to his new organization’s business model, in particular, thinking through ways and means to ensure self sustainability of the enterprise while realizing the mission and social goals.
The question was still lingering in his mind as he parked the car in his garage. What
should be the focus of his organization? Should it be ‘To develop underprivileged job seekers into job creators’ or ‘To support capability building and scaling of existing ventures managed by underprivileged individuals/ communities’ The chosen statement would set the course for Apte’s planning and implementation in his home state of Maharashtra over the next 3 years.
If Apte chooses the first statement, ‘To develop underprivileged job seekers into job creators’, the organization would be called Cascade World. Cascade World will work towards identifying young entrepreneurs who are between 21-35 years of age from under-privileged backgrounds (household income < Rs.5000 per month). Cascade World would reach out to the underprivileged communities through its employees and volunteers. The organization would also identify counselors, who will guide the young individual entrepreneurs throughout the project’s lifecycle. The counselors would be individuals with established business operations or salaried persons working at a corporate in Maharashtra. Once entrepreneurs are identified, they would be coached by Cascade World employees and volunteer counselors. Business plans would be developed and Cascade World may decide to provide the seed capital ranging from 1 lakh to 5 lakhs. Apte believes the opportunity for Cascade World lies in bringing together the underprivileged youth, the counselors and the financing institutions. There are several enabling factors 1. The number of underprivileged youth in Maharashtra is high 2. Corporate Social Responsibility has become a buzz world in the Corporate world and counselors would be available easily If Apte chooses the second statement, ‘To support capability building and scaling of existing ventures managed by underprivileged individuals/ communities’ the organization would be called Sustain World. Sustain World will work towards providing individuals, institutions, with strategies and skills through which they will be able to strengthen and/ or scale up their livelihood strategies. Sustain World would reach out to underprivileged individuals and communities through its employees and volunteers. Once the group/ individuals are selected, Sustain World would provide inputs and advisory relating to areas such as skill building, planning, tactical execution plans, improved understanding of business that would help enhance their revenue earning potential. As he went to bed, Apte was grappling with similar challenges for Cascade World and Sustain World.
1. What would it take for the model to become self sustaining and emerge as a viable proposition?
2. What process would Cascade World apply to identify individual entrepreneurs? Alternatively how would Sustain World identify individuals / communities to provide advisory services?
3. How many people can Cascade World or Sustain World impact in the first three years? How can the model be made scaleable?
Here’s how YOU can help.
Instructions for submitting your response:
All entries are required to be structured in the following format. Entries that do not fulfill the criteria given above will be rejected.
• Page 1: Mention personal details, stream of participation, education and experience.
• Page 2: Summary of your model. You may choose either of the business models mentioned in the case. The summary should describe the salient features of your model and the reasons behind your choice of model (in 250-300 words.
• For your chosen model, please provide answers to Questions 1, 2 and 3 (in 350-400 words each) with each answer on a separate page, and in the sequence as provided in the case brief.

Evaluation Criteria:
All entries would be evaluated basis the following criteria:
• Feasibility and Sustainability
• Originality and Novelty
• Target Market Identification
• Scalability

My Solution For Case Study:-
Summary and Reason for Selected Model from Case Study -
Mr. Apte, in my view, the objective of the case study is to have more inclusive and sustainable growth in Maharashtra by positively impacting lives of underprivileged population through self sustainable economic model and later implementing its success throughout India. My observation says that both proposed models are not mutually exclusive and main differences between them are; their potential of being self sustainable and scalable after some time, age limit of targeted individuals and amount of positive change in first 3 years. I too believe that we have to be the pivot of change that we want to see and feel honored to be your adviser for such a noble cause.

Keeping objective and time frame in mind, I would like you to choose Sustain World (SW) model as practicality says, we can expect milk sooner from a young cow than a new born calf. Selected candidates for SW will already have some experience in business activities so raising their capabilities would be comparatively easy and the time and effort in “first few steps” that are going to be used for identifying candidates and their businesses for Cascade World (CW), will be less for SW.

I would like to implement SW model primarily on the lines of cooperative units such as Amul and also look into diversification of existing product profile for selected individuals / communities or starting a new venture if existing doesn’t look promising enough.

I think that an ideal solution for achieving ultimate objective would be using strengths of both models together but you haven’t given me that liberty for “first 3 years.” so later the experience gained by SW can be utilized for starting CW like subsidiary. This combined entity will create a bigger positive impact.

I hope that you would be satisfied with my analysis of the matter.

Mr. Apte, in next three pages I will try to provide solutions for doubts that you have in mind regarding Sustain World model as per best of my abilities.

1. What would it take for the model to become self sustaining and emerge as a viable proposition?

Mr. Apte, as I understand from your profile, you have many contacts with international financial and labor organizations. CSR too has become a buzzword for lots of big organizations, who would be happy to send their experts for any worthy initiative and there are various government schemes, charitable foundations and NGOs which can be source of our initial funding. We can have lots of volunteers from students of business schools. We should work upon creating a self sustaining model that not only provides employment but also takes care of local ecological system, health, social and security issues of people belonging to SW initiative.

To make this model self sustaining and viable proposition we have to search for innovative and creating individuals / communities and their skill sets, reducing fixed costs of ventures, suggesting methods for improving production process and quality of goods, adding new products as per skills and market requirements, marketing their goods to new markets and creating new customers / retaining existing ones. There are various ways through which we can do that, few of them would be

1) We should have very few permanent employees whose salary will be generated from revenue sharing on sells through SW outlets in major cities. Most of the workforce should be made from motivated volunteers.
2) I am really impressed with the way Amul (GCMMF) cooperative, Shri Mahila Grah Udyog and Grameen Bank model works. So we should keep in mind such cooperative based models or self help group models for production of goods while giving consultancy services.
3) We should try to create new customers. One example would be tying up with hotels, retail malls or airlines for selling low price goods such as clay items and handicrafts. These restaurants and malls will add cost of these items to the bills exceeding certain amount. I think that those who are spending thousand rupees on cloths or food won’t mind spending some 15-20 Rs extra for a noble cause. Another way would be marketing these goods through religious organizations or convincing big companies to give these items as office gifts.
4) For customers who are not close to SW outlets, SW can reach them by creating a website for marketing and selling its goods.

There can be many ideas like above and I would discuss them in detail once we meet.

2. How would Sustain World identify individuals / communities to provide advisory services?

Mr. Apte, in my view identifying individuals / communities is the most important step for success of SW. For doing this we should focus on a single district first and start survey through our volunteers who will use population data from NGOs or government departments. We should modify this data for our use by considering few factors. Such as;

1) Classifying these individuals and communities on the basis of type of area they live in like urban, semi urban, rural or tribal and having some shops / ventures, then combining it with household income less than 10,000 Rs. per month for urban area, 7000 Rs for semi urban area and 3000 Rs for rural area. It would be beneficial as some government schemes as Swarnajayanti Gram Swarozgar Yojana, give loans only to rural population.
2) In India work generally passes from one generation to another, so we can identify communities on basis of traditionally backwardness such as cobblers, pottery makers, artisans, milkman, carpenters or blacksmiths keeping in mind income criteria in point 1 and their present work profile. This would be beneficial as their expertise will come handy for starting cooperative units of their respective fields.
3) Farmers and nomads (cattle herds, shepherds) with annual income less than 40,000 Rs. can be identified for SW initiative.
4) We can have education as one criterion. Individuals with education till 10th - 12th standard and household income less than 3000 Rs from rural or semi urban area hold lots of potential. With communication barriers coming down, we can advice and train them to switch career in some different field such as owing / managing rural BPOs.

Once we have made our list than we should reorganize it on the basis of their residing area, skills, traditional backwardness and education.

For identified communities the idea to move forward would be to create a cooperative unit of artisans or pottery makers so that they can market their products effectively. These units will act in synergy with each other. We would prefer that under one cooperative group we have members belonging to same area but they can be from different places too and for preventing communication gap between them we will provide them with affordable mobile phones.

For identified individuals we can groom them with lots of professional advice, equipments and finding new consumers to make their business a bigger success.

3. How many people can Sustain World impact in the first three years? How can the model be made scaleable?

Lao Tzu said "Give a Man a Fish, Feed him for a day. Teach a Man to Fish, Feed him for a lifetime." Over a period of time, the impact of SW model in providing inclusive growth can be tremendous because it too involves teaching people “how to fish.” Since for data collection I would like you to select a district which is close to some big cities like Mumbai or Pune so Ahmednagar or Raigadh would be best fit. If head or main lady or primary earning member of the household is positively affected then whole family will also be affected in similar way. If we keep average size of the family members as 6 then for first 3 years, my estimate says that we can affect at least 3,000 to 5,000 people and considering many of them would have families; their actual number may stand at 17,000 to 28,000. You might know that in start Shri Mahila Grah Udyog was having only 7 members but as of now it has around 42,000.

Scalability is one of the embedded characteristics of my plan for Sustain World model. Once we get success in our first chosen district, we can start including people from near by districts, keeping in mind their skill set, in any existing venture that we already supporting under SW. We would be constantly updating our database with new ventures as every district / state of India has their own unique flavor like North Eastern India is very strong in making bamboo artifacts or Tamilnadu has expertise in making sculptures from stones and metals. A great example of scalability for cooperative approach is success of so many milk cooperatives based on Amul model. I know the product of milk producing cooperatives is daily consuming item so we can also plan to diversify current product profile of ventures to include these types of items.

In the nut shell through this model we have a wonderful opportunity through which we can change millions of lives in coming years. I believe that your past experience will come handy in this regard. We all individually can’t be like sun which removes all darkness but we all can become small lamps which can remove darkness from a specified area and you know what Mr. Apte, if we can make all lamps work together then we might have our best chance to outshine the sun too. I once again thank you for this wonderful opportunity and looking forward to hear from you.

Thanks
Hemant Dubey

मेरी कवितायें : काश

2009-10-02T13:06:00.004-05:00

मेरा कहा अगर जो मान वो लेता ,

रुख हमारी जिंदगी का और ही होता !

मेरा हाथ अगर जो थाम वो लेता

इस तूफान को हमने सहन कर लिया होता !

दिए दर्द का अगर जो दाम वो लेता

दौलत का उसकी शायद हिसाब नही होता !

शिद्दत से अगर जो नाम वो लेता

कब्र में भी दिल शायद धड़क गया होता !!

"भूमिपुत्र"

मेरी कवितायें : बड़ी मुश्किल में हूँ

2009-09-29T12:36:00.003-05:00

साँस अगर लेता हूँ तो महक उसकी ही आती है
साँस अगर न लूँ तो बस जान निकल जाती है !
बड़ी मुश्किल में हूँ क्या करूँ समझ नही आता
वो बहुत दूर है मुझसे मगर याद बहुत आती है !!

आँखें अगर खोलूं तो नज़र बस वही आती है
आँखें जो बंद रखूं तो कसक और बढ़ जाती है !
बड़ी मुश्किल में हूँ क्या करूँ समझ नही आता
वो सामने नही है मगर हर जगह दिख जाती है !!

बात अगर करता हूँ तो आवाज़ उसकी ही आती है
में सुनु या ना सुनु बहुत उलझन सी हो जाती है !
बड़ी मुश्किल में हूँ क्या करूँ समझ नही आता
वो तनहाइयों में मुझको हर लम्हा सताती है !!

अशक़ अगर गिरते हैं तो बस बाढ़ सी आती है
अशक़ अगर ना गिरें तो पलकें ही फट जाती है !
बड़ी मुश्किल में हूँ क्या करूँ समझ नही आता
वो दील तो कबका ले चुकी अब बस रूह ही बाकी है !!

"भूमिपुत्र "

Is Pure Love an Oudated Concept & Practical Convenience is More Important?

2009-09-28T02:16:00.011-05:00

वियोगी होगा पहला कवि , आह से उपजा होगा गान ,
निकलकर नयनों से चुपचाप , बही होगी कविता अनजान !!
"सुमित्रानंदन पन्त"

Closest English translation that I could come up with is " The first poet must have been in sad mood, the song would have been originated from his deep pain. The unknown poem must have been flown down quietly from his eyes."

I have always felt that when you want to write a poem you should have some mood first. This mood can be about anything, but it should be strong enough to arose your passion. Some subjects which are capable of doing that to me are patriotism, sadness out of love, philosophy, motivational feelings and love itself. What Sumitranandan ji is saying I believe in that. He was one of the greatest Hindi poet of modern times.

What I am trying to say is Love or deep feelings for certain things can change your life in a way that you can ever imagine. The same love used to be my source of strength and the same love has become cause of great sadness and pain. But what should be anyone's approach while dealing with such matters. Is love really an outdated concept now, which everyone uses for just having some quick gratification? or its much more than the practical convenience. This question bothers me as my life is currently experiencing this dilemma. A dilemma is always better when question of whole life is involved as your present actions decides your life's future.

We loved each other madly and deep down inside its still there. I hope it stays like that because in her I have known a good human being too. She is very good friend, a rare breed of girl who defies traditional norms and makes her own path. She is an amazing painter and wonderful guitar player. She is great with making handicrafts. He concentration is so great that when she gets involved in making something or creating something, she forgets even having food. She is a great conversation maker and she knows your trigger points. She knows how to make me happy or angry. She plays with my ego very skillfully. If you talk to her its rather impossible to not to fall for her. With in our first few talks, she got me and ever since I got hooked to her. Only problem with her is she is very moody and has very very angry temperament. When she has grudge on something than only God can save you. Her ego is something which destroyed lots of good things between us. I have never experienced such things in my life when I heard that before her ego even she cant stand. I always thought that since its our ego we can always control it but like many other beliefs that I was holding on, this too proved wrong.

She is very rigid and non adaptive. She doesnt care about other people's feelings and that makes her little selfish in nature. She says its her life and she wants to live it the way she wants. She is not realizing now that lots of things in life are connected and inter dependent. I hope she realizes it soon otherwise it would again be a problem for her. Everyone has the right to live their life as they want but I know that its always not going to happen. Many times you have make amends as per situation. She was ready to change her some negative attributes for me but not for other people. Some of these attributes she is changing now and I wish her good luck.

She toned down her anger to some extent and similar ways I changed too. From my side it was a natural change and being adaptive in nature I adjusted rather quickly. I wanted to keep her happy. I wanted to keep my family happy too. As I said in my previous blogs there are really few people who truly care for you and I tried to make those all happy. To my surprise it became an herculean task. Now I know you cant make everyone happy. For some close people's happiness you have to sacrifice some other people's happiness or you have to sacrifice your own happiness. She rightly said one thing that family members should be like they be happy in what you do rightly. She just wanted to keep me happy but still on her terms. She has given priority to her life above all. She took it as some challange which I couldnt understand. I still couldnt understand why our life is only our life? There are so many people associated with it and they have their share of it. Well this was something that neither she nor me were able to make each other understand.

Anyone's life is made up of their own unique experiences. How you grew up, plays very important part in your future life. This decides your likings and dislikings for certain issues and its really difficult to let go of it. This becomes part of individuality and if you are really a big egoist you wont compromise on any of theose things. Of their past experiences, some people change bad things and keep things, which they think good, throughout their life. I now know that because of this only elders say that they will decide our life partners. As they generally see it all while deciding on your marriage. I never knew it but now learned it in hard ways.

Earlier I was of thinking that its love alone which is sufficient to get you through life and its the only important thing. But now I learned that love will only work when both people are ready to make little adjustments for each other. Love is an important part but other things are also equally important. How much adjustments two people along with love can do for each other, is going to define, how successful your relationship is going to be. This thing will again work if one of the partner is ready to sacrifice it all for other. But this situation is not right and situation will become worse after sometime. Incidentlly she and me had disagreement on those few terms , on which we found each other on opposite ends. If either of us had blinked, we would have been enjoying life together. But we are two too much intelligent people and as the saying goes too much intelligent people cant get along after certain distance. I wanted sometimes to give it all up for her but later felt that it would again feed her ego, which would be bad for her in longer run. She was good in her own ways but I wanted to tone down certain things from her which would make her even better person. She believed in a very interesting saying which again I never heard before " you shouldnt try to become good for anyone, if you are bad than expectations from you are less and you can live a life which doesnt involve anyone's interference, as people will generally stay away from you."

It seemed a very interesting thought to me but I couldnt digest it. It seemed like more of a negative protentionist measure which you are building for keeping a status quo. I believe that status quo is not good if it was build upon negative thoughts. So I am in some way opposite to that thought. I think that there is no good in being bad, it hurts you in similar ways as it does to others and mostly it hurts those who are very close to you. These are the people whom you always wanted to keep happy so why to make them sad because of your bad behaviour.

So you can see that it was clash of wits and wisdom. I enjoyed intelligent discussions with her. Earlier when she saw that my arguments were strong she laughed it off but later she got angry with it and accuse me of being argumentative and bugging:). I liked her intelligence. They way she carried herself was amazing. Our Zodiac presiding planets were of clashing nature and it was written in our horoscope matching that we have to sacrifice our egos for each other and I think it was the thing which neighter of us was willing to do. I too became a little rigid my approach and that ended the only hope of us being together.

In overall accessment of the situation I am the biggest loser of all. She got whatever she wanted besides me, my family got what they wanted as they were hesitant of my getting married to her. She and me both chose their convinience above love. I know that we both cant forget each other. She said that deep down inside, her heart will always beat for me and thats sufficient enough for me to live my life. There is no feeling of any grudge now. I couldnt give her what she wanted besides love. Its fair that she weant ahead and took it from somewhere else. She was practical enough to realise that time is not on her side. Being a girl there are certain things that you cant do in Indian society and I always believed that everyone deserves the right to be a little bit selfish and think of their own good. My all theories and advices to others till now are getting validated on me. I just wished that subject of this test would have been someone else, but well this is what life is all about. You have to walk your talk. Overall I think that its me and only me who lost it all. I cant think of anyone besides her. How long this situation will remain like this only God knows. In these situations time is the only healer. My wounds will be healed with time but the time till they heal is the one, where I want God to provide me enough strength.

27th September : My Personal 9/11

2009-09-26T22:55:00.004-05:00

Everybody has their share of 9/11s in their life. Today is my first one. I know many more will come in life ahead. Today I feel like I am witnessing my own murder, like someone is drowning me in water or burning me alive and I can feel that every single moment is taking me closer to death. I am an emotional fool, I dont have problem in admitting that. Generally everyone is little emotional but male ego prevents many males from admitting it. I dont have any problem in letting my heart open to all. When I am hurt I go extrovert otherwise I will be troubled by holding it all up inside. I dont have problem in admitting that I am short of well wishers and those people who truly care about me. This problem is my own in making. I was with her and I shut everyone out. My whole time and energy was devoted to her. I am feeling lonely and that has become my nature. I know its harmful and I have to get over it. The thoughts of losing her just destroying me from inside.

I know no one can help me and I myself have to cross this ravaging river. I have given this advice to so many people but ultimately it came down to me to follow it all. I always believed in practicing what you are preaching and this is my test. Its really difficult to forget her. May be its too long that I am living alone. I felt grown up for so many years. Always thought that i dont need anyone and can solve all my problems. But matter of hearts is the area where I now feel that you need someone to talk to. Who can make you comfortable. To whom you can open up yourself. The biggest problem in doing that is there are very few people whom you can trust while opening up. People after hearing you out, make your case public and which makes you a pitty creature in everyone's eyes. Many people dont understand your emotions and most of the times just looking for something which they can talk about to pass time during the day.

Very few people can understand your pain and you are lucky if you have one of them. Anyways what I am doing by writing this is trying to help any other person who might be in similar situation like me. I know time is the best healer and everything gets better with time but the problem is about present, the present moments are the worst of the times that I have been through. This too shall pass but until it passes its taking heavy toll on me. I just have to be strong from inside but I always felt that she was one of my support pillars. She was one of the bases on which I stood up all these years. She is opening up a new chapter in her life and I just want her to be happy. May god bless her with all the happiness of the world. May she get all that she wanted from life.

Life many times throw a tough choice on you and how you deal with it, is what defines you. I think I havent been on best of my behavior. I have hurt only those who are close to me and this in turn hurt me back. How soon I will get over the fact that she is no more with me, I frankly dont know. But I have to face it than only I will be able to move on. God give me strength to face it.

मेरी कवितायें : बहुत अकेला हो गया हूँ

2009-09-25T23:26:00.005-05:00

ख्वाबों के महल गिरकर टूटे , तिनके तक उडा ले गई हवा !
साया भी नही है साथ मेरे , बहुत अकेला में हो गया हूँ !!

आंसू मेरे दिख न जाए , बारिशों में ही निकलता हूँ
साँसे भी साथ छोड़ रही है , बहुत अकेला में हो गया हूँ !!

वो ही एक ठहराव था , जो मेरी रूह को सुकून दे गया
ख़ुद से बातें करता हूँ , बहुत अकेला में हो गया हूँ !!

किसी और से मिले लगता है , बहुत वक्त निकल गया
आइना नही पहचानता मुझे , बहुत अकेला में हो गया हूँ !!

"भूमिपुत्र"

Get Over It.. You Lost What Was With You.. Its Gone Forever

2009-09-25T13:21:00.005-05:00

Why its becoming so difficult.. why this heart doesnt understand the reason.. why its so illogical.. why its creating problem for me again.. why it cries so much.. why its impossible to move mind away from her when I am alone or in crowd.. why I am still living in past.. I want to call her right now.. many times picked up the phone.. but couldnt dial the number.. I am feeling her inside me now..my heard aches when I think of her too much.. its the same aching for her that I felt always.. why I am not understanding she is not mine now.. I have lost her.. why I am being so childish when I know all the answers.. when I know its all over.. its finished.. ohh God help me understand that I have to move on..

My whole life I have given priority to reason. I have given advice to so many people. I have told them to follow reason over everything and I guess it was right advice keeping that situation in mind.. why I am not able to follow the reason .. People say you should think from heart.. but life becomes too messy and difficult when you think from heart specially in case of heartbreak.. If I want myself on my feet again.. I have to give reason a chance.. I have to recall my own advices to people.. its almost 15 minutes now that I am writing this blog.. I just want everything inside me to come out because if it stays inside than it kills me and I end up having hatred for her which I dont want..

I have always believed that whatever God does he does it for good. There may be some good in store somewhere. But right now I am failed to see it.. It feels like I have lost everything.. All the beautiful dreams, all great hopes, all talks of future got crumbled in front of my eyes.. I often wondered why we met in first place if the end was to be like this. I fail to see God's big plan behind this. I usually control myself with lots of positive feelings.. and different activities.. but tonight it seems I am all alone..

This feeling is becoming just too much to handle.. every single moment spend with her is coming in mind.. ohh God what should I do.. where should I go so that I dont think anything about her.. for past so many years she was part of everything of mine.. from waking up in the morning to sleeping in nights.. every moment I was coming close to her.. I couldnt see it coming that some differences between us became so prominent that we had to part ways.. Now its too late I know.. Its all babbling to just throw all thoughts out.. I dont want to remember any bad things... I never did.. I dont want to hold any grudge.. the grudge destroys the holder from inside.. and thats all I got with me.. my inner courage.. I cant afford it to be destroyed..

I have to rise again.. for past 10 years of my life .. I have just wasted them here and there.. I could have achieved so much .. I could have fullfilled some of my dreams.. I could have taken initiatives which may have changed something in society for better.. I just let myself rot and wasted time in doing all stupid things.. I think I still have time.. I have to make best use of this time..

मेरी कवितायें: वो बदल गया

2009-09-22T14:11:00.006-05:00

बदला वो इस तरह के , मेरी ज़िन्दगी बदल गया
मुझे ऐसे मरता देखकर , दील उसका शायद बहल गया !!

दुश्मन होता अगर कहीं वो , तो शायद समझ भी जाता ,
हमसफ़र जिसे माना मैंने , कत्ल करके निकल गया !!

इंतज़ार किसिका करने की, हद भी कोई होती है ,
वो तो आया नही और, में बुत बनकर रह गया !!

मुट्ठी में भरी रेत जैसे ,उसे अपना मान लिया था मैंने ,
ख्वाब सारे टूट गए हैं, वो हाथ झटककर चल गया !!

"भूमिपुत्र "

Love is mostly Synonym of Pain

2009-09-17T15:20:00.005-05:00

Its been a long time that I have written a blog. I was and still going through lots of emotional turmoil. I am in very bad mood today and anyone can guess the reason by having a look at topic. I have not been able to come in terms with few happenings in my life. Past one year feels like the lost year of my life. Now when I look back I suddenly find the people whom I was thinking, were closest to me are just drifting away from me. This lost year has been a great revelation for me. If God can remove this last one year than my life had been relatively peaceful. I am generally very private person and dont believe in divulging even a single bit of detail of my private life with others but sometimes you have to think of larger public good and try to warn people so that they dont commit the same mistakes and end up feeling miserable.

So this blog is best suited for all lovers who are just passing through "over the moon" period and thinking of getting married in future. Some time ago I wrote a blog which was about some useful tips for making a relationship stronger. All those points are still valid for "over the moon" period. I call initial 1 or 2 years in a relationship as "over the moon" period. I am just trying to give an average and this period may be longer or shorter depending upon temperament of both the partners involved. In this "over the moon" period you like almost everything about your partner. You never see any flaw in them, their walk, their talks, the way they sip water, their smile, their voice, their clothing, their personality or what not is liked by you so much and you just get yourself drowned in ever flowing stream of a beautiful thing called love. I pray that everybody's "over the moon" period lasts forever. But as you all know God always has some different plans than us humans and slowly most of start recognizing all kinds of flaws which were not seen in that "over the moon" period.

My "over the moon" period's end is created by my confused state of mind. She was always clear what she wanted. It was me who was living in some other planet of fantasy. Always thinking that its love only which matters and rest come secondary. But to my surprise she made me realise that love is not the only important thing if you want to take your love to logical end by getting married. I was really surprised when I later came to know that there are certain things which come as per with love when you thinking of settling down in marriage. Some of them are, your own likings how want the things should be after your marriage, adjustability, adaptability in new environment, compatibility in all aspects (financial included) as if any one between the partners is not open to adjustments than it would kill your relationship later on. Some 3 years ago I used to be very short tempered person who used to give a knee jerk and instantaneous shock and awe reaction to anything adverse. we started fighting continuously of trivial issues and it was like if anyone is opening his or her mouth the next few minutes we will end up fighting.

I was thinking too high of myself and believing that I can make anybody understand my position and they will see the good side of my sayings and behave that way. But she changed it all. She shattered so many myths which I was holding on for long and I must thank her for that. She taught me practicality of the world and how the sibling and parent child relationships work. She made me aware that there is a bit of selfishness involved in most of the relationships as I was holding some relationships as selfless. Well this is the good part that she taught me but the worst part was so worst that I couldnt imagine that she is capable of doing such a big damage to my peace of mind.

There is a element of hypocrisy in her, well there is certain degree of it is present in me also in some respect. I accept that I am not flawless but with her she is not willing to accept that. The problem with her is she is too rigid and aggressive to understand the things which I wanted for her betterment. She was saying that she wont accept any interfere from my family in her life after marriage. I was of the opinion that elders in family generally say something which we all dont like but just to maintain harmony we should just listen to their words and do what we feel like doing. She rejected the whole thing as interference and now what I see today is she accepting it all from the place where she now getting engaged. I told her that you will change with time but she shouted back that its impossible for her to change and now her future mom in laws says the same thing and she doesnt have any objection. There is a difference of financial status between her home and mine. The place where she is getting engaged now is much wealthier than even her family so she is accepting all suggestions from them as improvements in her while with me she thought that I was curtailing her freedom and making her do some slavelry.

When I pointed the confusion in her thinking regarding this she was very furious and accused me of many terrible things. I am still in some shock that she started getting along with her new fiance in just 2 - 3 days. May be for I was the lost case for her and she is more practical than me and obviously her new fiance doesnt know about our relation. Someone said to me that indian girls adjust pretty easily with their new fiance and generally bury the past deep with in them. Boys sulk more than girls. Well that may be case of her adaptability with her future hubby but it left me with terrible confusion about her personality. She used to say that money doesnt matter for her and I believed her because she doesnt have that kind of nature otherwise she wouldnt have loved me in first place. But I think her thinking has changed a little bit for people whose class is higher than her class. Earlier with my family she was thinking that she is superior and my family is inferior to hers and over here she is trying to play catch up with her would be's family. So she is ready to accept their comments as improvements from her existing get up. She used to say that she knows her dress sense and makeup and no one should tell her anything about it from my side of family. But she is happily accepting all the unwanted advice that would be from his more wealthy fiance's side.

I know I have my share of stupid things and what she is doing now has some history in making. I didnt have any idea of home life as I have been staying out of home for almost 13 years now. She had that idea and because of that we started fighting for so many small things. Best thing would have been elders from both families should have sorted it out. I was unlucky that my family members got pissed with something said by her family side. But people shouldnt change their basic behaviour. If they stick with something at some place than they should keep it always specially in love relationhips. I dont have any doubts in this that she loved me a lot but at the end moment when we had to take it to logical conclusion we got cold feet due to all stupid reasons. Now life is really lonely without her. She was part of my everything from morning to nights for past few years. Now she isnt there and its becoming more and more difficult for me to forget her. I hope people who are reading this can just take some cue from my sufferings and dont repeat the same mistakes as I did. May God save everyone's love from similar stupid things as mine.

This Too Shall Pass

2009-09-17T15:17:00.001-05:00

Very Inspiring Forward Mail I got from one of my friends.. Please read on

Once a king called upon all of his wise men and asked them, ” Is there a mantra or suggestion which works in every situation, in every circumstances, in every place and in every time. In every joy, every sorrow, every defeat and every victory? One answer for all questions? Something which can help me when none of you is available to advise me? Tell me is there any mantra?”

All the wise men were puzzled by the King’s question. They thought and thought. After a lengthy discussion, an old man suggested something which appealed to all of them. They went to the king and gave him something written on paper, with a condition that the king was not to see it out of curiosity. Only in extreme danger, when the King finds himself alone and there seems to be no way, only then he can see it. The King put the papers under his Diamond ring.

Some time later, the neighbors attacked the Kingdom. King and his army fought bravely but lost the battle. The King had to flee on his horse. The enemies were following him. getting closer and closer. Suddenly the King found himself standing at the end of the road - that road was not going anywhere. Underneath there was a rocky valley thousand feet deep. If he jumped into it, he would be finished…and he could not return because it was a small road…the sound of enemy’s horses was approaching fast. The King became restless. There seemed to be no way.

Then suddenly he saw the Diamond in his ring shining in the sun, and he remembered the message hidden in the ring. He opened the diamond and read the message. The message was - ” THIS TOO SHALL PASS”

The King read it . Again read it. Suddenly something struck him- Yes ! This too will pass. Only a few days ago, I was enjoying my kingdom. I was the mightiest of all the Kings. Yet today, the Kingdom and all his pleasure have gone. I am here trying to escape from enemies. Like those days of luxuries have gone, this day of danger too will pass. A calm came on his face. He kept standing there. The place where he was standing was full of natural beauty. He had never known that such a beautiful place was also a part of his Kingdom.

The revelation of the message had a great effect on him. He relaxed and forgot about those following him. After a few minutes he realized that the noise of the horses and the enemy coming was receding. They moved into some other part of the mountains and were near him.

The King was very brave. He reorganized his army and fought again. He defeated the enemy and regained empire. When he returned to his empire after victory, he was received with much fanfare. The whole capital was rejoicing in the victory. Everyone was in अ festive mood. Flowers were being showered on King from every house, from every corner. People were dancing and singing. For a moment King said to himself,” I am one of the bravest and greatest King. It is not easy to defeat me. With all the reception and celebration he saw an ego emerging in him.

Suddenly the Diamond of his ring flashed in the sunlight and reminded him of the message. He open it and read it again: “THIS TOO SHALL PASS”.

He became silent. His face went through a total change -from the egoist he moved to a state of utter humbleness. If this too is going to pass, it is not yours. The defeat was not yours, the victory is not yours. You are just a watcher. Everything passes by. We are witnesses of all this. We are the perceivers. Life comes and goes. Happiness comes and goes. Sorrow comes and goes.

Now as you have read this story, just sit silently and evaluate your own life. This too will pass. Think of the moments of joy and victory in your life. Think of the moment of Sorrow and defeat. Are they permanent ? They all come and pass away.

Life just passes away. There is nothing permanent in this world. Every thing changes except the law of change. Think over it from your own perspective. You have seen all the changes. You have survived all setbacks, all defeats and all sorrows. All have passed away. The problems in the present, they too will pass away. Because nothing remains forever. Joy and sorrow are the two faces of the same coin. They both will pass away.

You are just a witness of change. Experience it, understand it, and enjoy the present moment - this too shall pass!

मेरी कवितायें :- एक अधुरा ख्वाब

2009-01-28T05:58:00.006-06:00

ना जाने कितने लोग मेरे साथ हैं ,
फ़िर भी तड़पाता ये अकेलेपन का अहसास है !

होठों की हँसी पे जाती हैं सबकी नज़र ,
आंखों को जरा देख एक धंसा हुआ फांस है !

एक अधूरे ख्वाब जैसी लगने लगी है ज़िन्दगी ,
दिल धड़क तो रहा है पर साँसे उसके पास है !

उसका ख्याल आते ही चहरे पे चमक आती है ,
में जानता हूँ इस दिल में उसकी जगह कुछ खास है !!

"भुमिपुत्र "

My 12 Questions for Irrational and Fanatic Muslims

2008-10-05T21:19:00.006-05:00

I respect beliefs of people and believe every religion has some fairy tales which becomes part of it in due course of time. There is no harm in believing in fairytale unless its start harming others physically and try to destroy them. I have belief in God and I believe that God is same for all of us. I dont have problem in anyone's belief as its upto an individual how he sees his own way, but when stupidity and brainwashed illogical brains commit crime in name of God than it hurts everyone to see how someone can be killed in name of God. Brainwashed people generally follow a cult where they are not allowed to think beyond what is written in some manual and they commit heinous crimes because of their illogical belief in certain things which takes away their right to think. In this light I tried to understand Quran and came up with few questions.. I hope if common Muslims read them than they will also know that its time for reason to prevail over bigotry...

1)What is the reference in Quran regarding throwing stones at Shaitan while performing Hajj? If there is none than and why people still do it?? Isnt it would be better not to do something which is not there in Quran??

2)How come that Stone is Symbol for Shaitan? You are not supposed to use any symbol for religious things if you are a Muslim. Why then people think that stone is Shaitan? If there can be a stone symbol for Shaitan than why not for Allaha? Isnt that stone is also creation if Allaha? So how come Muslims are thinking a creation of Allaha as symbol of Shaitan? Are Muslims not committing greatest sin here?

3) When Quran say that no one can be seen as partner to Allaha than why Muhammad will sit with Allaha for interceding on day of Qayamat and Allaha will listen to his pleading and act while Allaha being omnipotent should know everything and shouldnt require anyone's help in judgment?

4) Can God be different for Different people on earth? Or can God reward some killer just because he happens to have a name belonging to particular geography on earth and punish the good person who doesnt worship God or worship him in different ways than prescribe in a particular book??

5)Tell me how come Shaitan can become so powerful that he can even inspire the Satanic Verses? Does Allaha not know what Shaitan is going to do ?? Why Allaha even allows Eve to to eat the apple in Eden? If he was so concerned he should have prevented that Satan from instigating Eve from eating apple.. right?? How come Shaitan is acting on his free will and challanging almighty Allaha and even winning at times from him? If allaha isnt that powerful that Shaitan isnt in his control than how come he is going to control the world and universe?

6)Why non muslims have to pay Jajiya and feel subdued in a Dar Ul Islam? Why they cant live with their self respect? Why they have to pay special tax? Isnt it a form of torture? Paying tax for just worshipping in some other ways.. isnt that wrong on part of any so called God?

7) When people like Zakir Naik quote Hindu Shastra than Its nice to see Muslims are reading Hindu religious scriptures. But I just cant stop smiling on the fact that all these Sanatan Dharma religious scriptures which are being quoted are much much much older than time of Quran. So if truth as I already have mentioned was already known from Hindu Shastra than what was the need of Quran in first place?? Now dont say that all old was corrupted otherwise you wouldnt have been quoting Hindu Shastra here..so truth was/is already present..

At the best what I can understand is, it was external ways of worshiping which got changed. So if it was only external things than why would someone like GOD would be worrying the way people worshiping him? In the end they are worshiping him..right?? So much bloodshed just for all this external way of worshiping and not seeing the truth in heart.. which GOD can approve that??

8)And when the word is fulfilled concerning them, We shall bring forth a BEAST of the earth to speak unto them because mankind had not faith in Our revelations. (Quran 27:82)

Here Allah is promising that he will send a beast to bring his message to mankind in future.. Now Muhammad claimed that he is seal of prophecy..but here Allaha promising a BEAST :) as future messenger to mankind.. Now Either Allaha is right in saying this or Muhammad lied through Quran about his being seal of prophecy.. And why some beast as messenger? cant we have some direct Angel whom we can understand more properly??

9) Why Allaha has sealed the heart of Non believer? Now if I think about it than it seems to me that it Almighty Allaha's fault and not any non believer's.. isnt it?? If He wanted to reveal himself to all than what was the need to seal hearts and than saying get Jajiya tax from non believers or treat them differently. Is in not wrong on Allaha's part?

10) If Quran claims to be a clear message for believers than how come so many sects of Muslims are there? If believers have so much trouble in understanding teaching of Quran than what fanatic Muslims expect from non believers?? If Quran is clear in message than what is the meaning of "Alif Lam Mim" which appears in several verses.

11)YUSUFALI: None of Our revelations do We abrogate or cause to be forgotten, but We substitute something better or similar: Knowest thou not that Allah Hath power over all things? (Noble Quran 002:106)

"We substitute something better or similar" Allaha thinks that his earlier version of truth in Torah and Bible were not good and since Hinduism is no truth for fanatic Muslims so I havent written it here with Bible and Torah. So Allaha is correcting his past mistakes in Quran.. The conclusion is Quran says God is doing mistakes.

12) Since Muslims have to wait till day of judgment after they die to go to heaven so isnt it a injustice for those Muslims who died 1400 years ago from now? Since they have to wait these many years than those who die now or will die in future. Isnt this scheme of justice already doing injustice to those who already died?

As I said earlier I dont have objection when people believe in fairy tales but these tales should limit to their own mind and shouldnt become a tool to harm others. I invite all Muslim scholars to give me explanation of these 12 points. If They cant then they must accept that there are several ways to reach one common destination as described in Veda's as "Ekam Sat Vipra Bahudah Vadanti" means the truth is only one and wise people know it by different names.

Vande Mataram

Jai Hind

www.himalayan-swastika.blogspot.com

Unity In Diversity: Is it Impossible To Achieve OR So Easy That We Just Ignore It?

2008-10-03T16:29:00.003-05:00

Watching TV news or reading new papers of any country in this world is not comforting these days. I do it just out of curiosity. I like to know what is going on in the whole world. Google’s news application is pretty handy in this regard. Through it you will be able to know about opinions of different news papers on the same issue. If you really have an open mind you can see pros and cons of that issue or news and make up your mind to oppose, support or be neutral about it. If you already belong to certain ideology then you will pick the points which suits your way of thinking. There is plenty of material available on internet to strengthen your way of thinking either way for any issue. Then there are Community Forums of social networking sites like Orkut or internet chat rooms of Yahoo and other sites where you will be amazed to meet people with great knowledge. World population is coming closer to each other and I think after 50 to 100 years there will be very less conflicts in the world. Why I think like that?

I think like that because majority of the times its communication gap and no detailed knowledge which makes people suspicious of each other. This less or no knowledge about particular place, personality or religion is what creates a mentality of us versus them. When we have made up our mind that other person is our enemy then we majority of the times just try to find faults in them. That’s why ignorant Christians find so many faults with Hinduism and thinks Islam as their second rate version, ignorant Muslims find Christianity as second rate version of itself and doesn’t find Hinduism as a way to worship almighty. Ignorant Hindus find Islam barbaric and Christianity full of deceit that is just hell bent on destroying them by any mean possible. Now I am going to let my mind dwell deeper and write what I think is correct. There is one basic concept in which I believe in. I believe that there is Ishwar/God/Allaha or any superior force which makes functioning of this world and beyond possible. That God is one and same for all and people just have different ways to worship the same reality. You are free to agree or disagree with me as always.

There is good in every religion. There has to be good in the thing which calls itself a way to reach God or Allah or Ishwar. Otherwise this thing is of no use. Religion offers humans an explanation of the unexplained. It tells you about the things which are beyond control of science. This topic is of great interest to me. My search for knowing truth began when I first read commentary on Bhagwat Geeta’s chapter 2 and 3 given to me by my friend. This book was written by Acharya Rajneesh. Those who have studied Osho’s books know that that it leaves a profound impact on your mind and you yearn to learn more. I was hooked. I read him days and nights by borrowing and purchasing his books on all topics. Although I don’t agree with him on all things but still those books gave me many answers I was looking for. After that I read Bible, Quran and other Hindu religious books like Upanishads, some part of Vedas and writings of Vivekananda.

I wanted to go to the root of conflicts and see why they are there. Why people are fighting in the name of God which was meant for giving peace to all of us. Human stupidity has reached its height when anyone murders in name of God. How any God is going to be pleased by seeing murders of his creation in his name? Why anyone like God would have problem in way people worship him? All religion say God is almighty, omnipresent, who knows each and every thing in people's heart and beyond then why religious fanatics believe that its only their version of God which is true and all others are false? Why some fanatics believe that its particular name of almighty which is important? How any God like thing can say that he will protect a particular community or person who belongs to certain geography of the world even though they can be bad and criminal but will not hesitate in punishing good people who are worshipping him in some different way? Those who have problem with the way God is worshipped by people either that section of people in world hasn’t understood what God is all about or they are misusing Gods name by dragging him in their own fight for obvious benefits. Why?? Because its such a basic thing in which people don’t even think that there cant be different supreme reality to different people. Any God who claims that he is the only true God and all others are false can not be a God. God is God because he doesn’t involve in human like competitions of being number one or two. He is God because he is beyond all. God reveals himself in each of his creation. Its all him everywhere you see and whatever you see or don’t see or experiences through your senses. Each of us shares a special bonding with him because we are from him. He cant differentiate between Hindus, Muslims, Christians, Sikhs, Jains, Buddhists, Jews, Atheists, low or high caste, black or white race. He cant , he simply cant do anything like favoritism. If anyone is trying to impose this differentiation human feeling on God then he is actually doing a great disservice and greatest sin towards God.

Yes God does justice like an honest judge and no one can hide his or hers rights and wrong from him. The God will punish the wicked and reward the righteous and caste, creed, community or a particular way of worship shouldnt matter for him. If these things matters for any one like God than he is not a God. He doesnt deserve to be known as God. The simple fact is its us humans who have degradded his name for our own selfish narrow interest. He has given humans lot of freedom by giving them power of thinking. He hasn’t done that with any other creation. A simple example is animal baby is born without any protection and assistance from anyone. A particular geography and climatic condition has that type of animals. When its cold God has given them lots of fur. When its hot God has given them smooth skin and capability gather food in their own ways. On the other hand humans don’t have that natural protection but God has given us brains to use. With this brain we have changed climatic conditions, used animal skin to protect us. It means we are God’s freest creation and he has put a lot in our hand and brain. Its up to us how we use that intelligence. But seeing all this fighting in name of God makes me wonder has he done a right thing? Wouldn’t the world have been a better place when we would have been living like animals do? With no bomb blasts to worry about, no ideological battle to fight, no money to run after, no concern for Ozone layer hole, global warming and terrorism, just two needs of gathering food and reproducing babies when time comes.

Don’t you all think that we have made this world a disaster? Is this God would have wanted when he has created us? May be he might not be having fun with all goodliness of animals and their regular things. Well if there would have been no human on earth than we all wouldn’t have been discussing God at all. It means he wanted us on earth and wanted us to know the best by use of our brain. But I guess majority of us is not using this wonderful gift of God in proper way.

Well while going through all these different religious and philosophical books I came to know a lot about different amazing things. It’s a personal liberating journey of truth which makes your mind open with wonder. You feel like you know so little in vast ocean of knowledge. I wanted to become a monk but I guess that desire wasn’t strong enough. I just want everyone to take that journey. It makes you think about lot many things and perhaps this is the reason India has produced so many towering personalities. When mind is free from a sense of victimhood it lets you do wonderful things. Otherwise you will forever going to remain in miserable condition.

The common problem with some Muslims in India is they think that its state and police which is acting against their interest and justify bomb blasts as a way to avenge that sense of victimhood. I have seen many educated Muslims using the same argument. But I would like to tell them that this sense of victimhood belongs to every poor and less privileged in India. In India people with money and political power many times abuse their fortune by indulging in extortion of masses. It happens. It happens with every common Indian when they come in contact with any government office for doing their work and police and administration is part of that. So this sense of victimhood belongs to everyone who is less privileged in India and its not a Muslim specific problem. Majority of common Indians tried avoiding this sense of victimhood by sending their children to private schools and many times at cost of their good life style. They made every resource available with them in good education of their children. Even though they were poor they borrowed money or took up any other job but made their children study. On the other hand lots of Muslims send their children to Madarasa. I am not against any Madarsa education but education in Madarsa is of no practical worldly use. How can you expect someone having a Hafiz or Pandit course to be employed in an engineering firm? Its easy to have a sense of victimhood and blame all your troubles on someone else. But wouldn’t it be nicer that people just stop complaining and become partner in growth of India like all others?

I am not turning my blind eye towards stupidity and generalization that has crept in common population in India. I wouldn’t have believed that discrimination but it happened with one of my dear friend. He was denied a house on rent since he belonged to a particular religion. It made me sad as I know my friend is very good person and I complained and written to new paper editors about it. I went with him to argue with land lord but to no avail. I went again to land lord alone and asked why he is doing that after talks with him I realized that there is a general impression that many people although eat non vegetarian food but don’t like cutting of any goat in front of them. I couldn’t do anything and felt so helpless. It was a good thing that my friend got house just near by. I thanked God for this. People are generalizing a lot and situation like involvement of educated and well to do young boys in bomb blasts is not helping situation in any case. I am for co mingled community housing societies. Ghettos filled with one particular religious community or people from one region are bad for country as diverse as India. Housing ghettos like those just reinforce sense of victimhood and create misunderstanding towards other view points. It generates feeling of us verses them and not good for a country like India. The solution of this type of problem can be open declaration of any housing society rules and clear definition that there would be no discrimination on basis of caste, community or religion. Yes, a housing society can declare that there would be no cutting of animals in their society complex and other external things like that and I hope no one would have problem with this kind of rule and many people including me don’t like seeing animals being cut either in any temple or other religious activities. As I think there are enough butcher shops available if you want to cook non vegetarian food.

Christian missionaries have done great serice for poors in India and I admire that. But will anyone like Jesus be happy when he sees the methods adopted by some missionaries in coverting innocent tribal people? I dont need to elaborate on this as its well in public domain. They take name of constitution and say its freedom of religious propagation in India. But why they are confusing freedom to propagate for freedom to conversion? What anyone can get by converting someone to some other religion? Its madness to convert people by using means of money and fraud. No one would object to teachings of Jesus but when NSCN IM in Nagaland declares that they want Greater Nagaland in name of Christ than all partiots would get a feeling that either these guys havent understood what Jesus taught or they are just becoming some Christian Taliban. Those who seek converts in their religion think that theirs is the only true way while others are false. But cant they understand the simple logic that if God would have wanted it to be like this than He wouldnt have made so many different ways in first place? Serive for poors and unpriviledged is the greatest way you can worship God. But when this service comes with a motive of converting than it becomes a give and take business of soul. When missionaries get target of converting some number of people every year than it just denotes that how much business is involved in business of God. I am not against conversions. If anyone feels like worshiping the almighty in some other ways than I am least worried about that. But when there is business of faith for political power and breaking national ethoes than I just cant remain silent. I am sure that true followers of Christ would understand this.

Those Hindus who are killing innocents of other faith are doing the same heinous crime. A Hindu cant have problem with anyone worshiping anything because all ways leads to almighty only. I wonder which Rama or Krishna will be happy by seeing rape of a woman. They dont go and eradicate evil like misunderstood casteism which has taken away self respect of so many people. They are not going and eradicting social evils like dowry and female foeticide from their own house and than blame others for exploiting the same. If you keep your house clean than who will dare to point fingers?

Why it becomes so hard for people to understand that every religion has its share of fairytales. And these scriptures may have been manipulated by humans for solving their own purposes. If anyone believes in any fairytales than it doesnt harm anyone untill some people start claiming that their's fairytale is only true and others have to follow it or die. The best approach for solving this problem is to live and let live according to some common laws based on todays time. This approach is the only guarantee for a peaceful coexistance of different communities. Faith in God is really a personal matter and religions are meant for transforming you from with in.

India is very diverse and diversity should be its strength. There is one beautiful story about first ship of Zoroastrians or Parsis arrival on Gujarat coast to save themselves from persecution in their home land in 8th Century. King Jadi Rana sent a pot filled with milk to Parsi elders on ship denoting that he doesn’t have any space left in his kingdom. The Parsis returned that filled pot after adding sweetener to milk denoting that they would live in his kingdom like this and add value. To this day these Paris even after 1300 years stick to their commitment that their forefathers gave to King Jadi Rana and you can see that commitment in likes of Tatas, Maneckshaws, Godrejs even today.

This is an ideal example of unity in diversity. That concept remains valid today too where everyone has to play his or her part to make India a greater place to live. God wanted us to live and co exists with differences. If God would have wanted just one type of things than he wouldn’t have created so many different races and religions, he wouldn’t have created so many colors in nature, he wouldn’t have created so many different animals, and he wouldn’t have created so much of bio diversity. I don’t understand why it becomes too hard for all people to understand this. Cant they just see it around them? They are working against will of God if they are destroying others in his name. Unity in diversity is what God want us to see and believe. He wants us to understand it all. We all educated people should make it our duty to make this known to everyone in our beloved motherland. Since we all have to emphasize more on commonalities than on differences if we want peace and prosperity for all Indian citizen. May God direct our intellect in right direction.
Vande Mataram
Jai Hind
Hemant Dubey

The J&K Saga- Root Problem And Its Effective Solution

2008-08-20T20:30:00.008-05:00

ओ भारत के वीर जवानों , माँ का क़र्ज़ चुका देना ,
कटे फटे इस मानचित्र को अबकी ठीक बना देना !!
पटना साहीब से मीलने को ननकाना बैचेन खड़ा ,
अबकी तीरंगा रावलपिंडी में घुस कर फहरा देना !!
अटक कटक से सिन्धु नदी तक सब कुछ हमको प्यारा है ,
कश्मीर मत मांगो कह दो पाकिस्तान हमारा है !!

जो उपवन से घात करे वो शाख तोड़ दी जायेगी ,
जो पीछे से वार करे वो बांह मोड़ दी जायेगी ,
जो कुटुंब का नाश करे वो गर्दन तोड़ दी जायेगी,
मेरे देश पे उठती हर एक आँख फोड़ दी जायेगी ,
जो देश द्रोह की बात करे वो मनुष्य हत्यारा है ,
कश्मीर मत मांगों कह दो पाकिस्तान हमारा है !!

अपनी झीले, नदीयाँ, पर्वतमाला कैसे दे देंगे ?
भारत भर की रूप सुधा का प्याला कैसे दे देंगे ?
वैष्णो देवी , बाला अमर उजाला कैसे दे देंगे ?
अमरनाथ का बोलो पुण्य शीवाला कैसे दे देंगे ?
गंगा से मीलने को झेलम का बैचेन कीनारा है ,
कश्मीर मत मांगों कह दो पाकिस्तान हमारा है !!

I first heard this poem while attending annual Hindi poem recital competition in my school approximately 17 years ago. At that time I wasn't that aware about world and Indian politics but somehow this poem agitated me from inside. I still remember that day coming back home with a heavy heart. The feeling that someone wants to take away my mother India's belongings created a deep sense of rage. Probably I count that day as the day of my political awakening. As a child I forgot the rage and anger after 2 or 3 days but that poem always echoed in my mind. When I started writing my diary of poems and sher-shayaris, I wrote this poem there too. Although it wasn't originally written by me but the emotions that I felt after hearing its recital, was a special memory I wanted to keep alive. That day I felt so Indian that I wanted to go out on border and declare war on Pakistan.

These were the magic words and today inside my mind I am again hearing its recital. I dont remember my schoolmate, who was reciting it but since than I recited it so many times that each and every word of this has become written on my heart. Some one is again trying to snatch my mother's belongings and again emotions are taking control of my mind.

I wanted to write about whole Baba Amarnath – Kashmir fundamentalist -terrorist issue before but decided against it to see reaction of the all sections of media intellectuals and general population. I did that because I wanted to be sure that what I write should include every aspect of the problem. Again I admit that I am nobody but still democracy gives each and every small or big citizen right to express their thoughts freely and that's what I have done till now.

But some people doesn’t know what is freedom with responsibility. Likes of Shabana Azmi, Arundhati Roy and many so called pseudo secularists, human right activists come in this category. Even though they have their best time in India but they never miss a chance to destroy India’s pride and take advantage of largely tolerant, liberal and truly secular Indians. Yesterday in paper it was Shabana Azmi who was complaining that minorities are being denied opportunities in India. Well ShabanaJi, tell me, who made your father such a great poet in India? Who accepted you as an actress who won several awards and become a MP? Does Indian not buy Cds of the songs written by Mr Javed Akhtar? Or does Indians haven’t gone and seen “Dil Chahta hai” or “Lakshya” directed by Farhan Akhtar? Or does Indians have stopped watching cricket when Azharuddin or Mansur Ali Khan Pataudi were captains of Indian cricket team? Or does Indians stopped watching movies in which Shahrukh, Salman, Amir, Saif, Fardeen, Imran or many other minority community actors performed? Or any Indian has given any less respect to Dr Abdul Kalam Azad? Or Indians dont want to listen songs from Adnan Sami or Mehadi Hasan? FYI Shabana Ji, its Pakistan which is not allowing their citizens to hear songs from Lata Mangeshkar and Jagjeet Singh. I don’t deny that people don’t have problem when Dilip Kumar goes to Pakistan and donate for Cancer Hospital while doing nothing for any Indian one. People will have problem when they see any Indian who is enjoying fruits of liberty and money earned here and simultaneously abusing the Indians and favoring other hostile nations.

Now Arundhati Roy, today I read that she is saying Kashmir needs azadi from India. She has gone to attend Hurriyat’s rally in Srinagar yesterday and after coming back from there she made this comment in TOI. These five star celebrity stupid people who doesn’t know reality on the ground just get overwhelmed by any anti national activities in name of human rights. I would like to ask her why she doesn’t go to Pakistan and suggest people over there that Balochistan and NWFP needs azadi from Pakistan. Why don’t she goes to Afganistan and suggest to Hamid Karzai that Taliban wants to rule Kabul so please leave Afganistan for Taliban. Why don’t she goes to Saudi Arabia and tell the kings there to leave Saudi Arabia for Osama since he wants to rule Saudi Arabia or why she haven’t still commented on what Chinese has done to Tibbetians or Uighur Muslims in Xinxiang? I guess China would be more interested in hearing her since she is one of the pro communists. But we all know she wont do that because all the above mentioned people will kill her for these stupid advices. Just writing some fictional books and winning only one award for that doesnt make any one so special that they can play with integrity of the nation. As per her logic there should be atleast 3 billion countries since I guess half of the world population wants some or other kind of freedom from their present governments. I think people of India need some kind of freedom from people like Arundhati Roy and I wont mind if people teach her a lesson so that her mind get a proper mental balance, which I guess she has lost after writing God of small things.

Let me be clear on certain things. I am not against any caste, community, region or religion. I am against corrupts and anti nationals whosoever they are. There are certain things I would never compromise while dealing with any separatists or terrorist. First there is not going to be any negotiation on territorial integrity of present Indian border, second there is not going to be any special provision in governance, foreign policy, law and order and defense for any state as all people enjoy the same freedom and all are equal. After agreeing on these two principles there can be negotiation on special economic packages for development of that state. I am not denying the fact that successive Indian central governments are responsible for the mess in J&K and north eastern states. North eastern states militancy except Nagaland has aroused mainly on the account of non development. Nagaland and Kashmir (Jammu and Lddakh are with rest of India) have peculiar problem and it can be solved with national resolve and will to take on the anti nationals. I will discuss Nagaland in some other blog. In this blog I would like to go in depth about Kashmir problem.

Brief History of Kashmir from 1850 Onwards:-

Jammu and Kashmir that you see in Indian maps is total undivided J&K with area 2,22,236 sq Kms. Out of this area PoK is having 78,114 Sq Kms and China too is enjoying the party by having 42,685 sq Kms. The word Kashmir is contraction of the word “Kashyapmeru means mountain of Kashyap”. According to Nilmata Puran Kashmir valley was fully under water and it formed a big lake by name Satisar. Geologists have also proven this fact that whole Kashmir valley was once under water. Nilmata Puran says Sage Kashyap drained that primordial lake of Satisar and now because of that we have beautiful valley of Kashmir with us. Kashmir’s population before Islam was basically Shaivite Hindus. After a treaty between Maharaja Gulab Singh of Jammu and British in 1846 Kashmir became part of Dogra ruler’s empire. Before this treaty Kashmir was ruled by chieftains belonging to empire of Maharaja Ranjit Singh of Punjab. Mr Karan Singh who is a congress MP is direct descendant of Maharaja Gulab Singh. I guess this is sufficient for having a little background on history of J&K.

As you all know we had two golden chances of solving this problem in past. First in 1948 when India got independence, Pakistan attacked Kashmir. Indian military forces captured most of the Kashmir and were on their way to capture rest of it. But Mr Nehru under influence Lord Mountbatten took this matter to UN. UN called for the cease fire and the present LoC became line of cease fire. For this mistake of Nehru, we are still paying even after 60 years. Anyways we had another golden chance in 1971 when we defeated Pakistan and captured 91,000 soldiers. Indian Gandhi failed to capitalize on this opportunity and didn’t press for permanent solution of Kashmir. She and Julfikar Ali Bhutto signed Shimla Agreement which called for settlement of Kashmir dispute to some later date through dialogues and that date still hasn’t come. In these two golden opportunities we could have managed to get the PoK back under our control but anyways history of India is of lost chances where our rulers in modern times, except Chankya and ChandraGupta, failed to be farsighted.

Nehru did another major blunder when he agreed to give J&K special status in Indian territory through article 370 in Indian constitution. This at first gave J&K its own flag, its own prime minister, its own constitution and even you and me would have to show passport to travel J&K. we are not carrying our passports while going for pilgrimage in Vaishno Devi and Baba Amarnath because of Dr Shayama Prasad Mukharjee. Dr Mukharjee was cabinet minister in Congress govt after independence. But as he saw Mr Nehru doing great injustice to the nation by granting special favors to his home state (Mr Nehru was a Kashmiri Pandit), he resigned from Congress and formed Bhartiya Jan Sangh with help from RSS. He decided to travel J&K without any valid document as any ordinary Indian would go to any other state of India. Sheikh Abdullaha arrested him and put him in prison. Dr Mukharjee died in prison in June 1953. His death mystery is still unsolved. After seeing this supreme sacrifice of a respected leader, Nehru amended his mistake regarding travel documents to J&K but rest of the things remained unchanged.

J&K was in relative peace till 1988. After getting defeated in 3 direct wars against India, Pakistan changed its tactics. After seeing success Iranian revolution and Jihad against Russians in Afganistan, General Zia Ul Haq, the military ruler of Pakistan, changed his game plan for destroying India. Pakistan got initial success with Sikh militancy in Punjab so they decided to do the similar thing in Kashmir. On the top of it 1988 general elections in J&K were rigged in favor of Abdullahs by New Delhi. This created a greater resent in Kashmir Valley. By this time Afgans, with help from western countries and Pakistan, were successful in throwing Russians out from their territory. This gave great impetus to terrorist and jehadi elements in Kashmir, who thought that similar thing can be implemented in here. J&K which was known for its tolerance and real secularism was systematically converted to hardcore Jehadi Islam. Kashmiri Pandits who were some 3 lakh in number in valley itself were told to leave or get converted to Islam or be killed. It worked out very well for Jehadis as there are only 10,000 of the Pandits still left in the valley. Around 1000 got killed in terrorist acts after 1990 and rest migrated to other parts of the country and world.

So far none of the great secularists and human right luminaries of India has done any thing about these people who are living like refugees in their own land. And that’s why I believe that so called human right activists and seculars are nothing but anti nationals, who start crying when some one convicted terrorist like Afzal Guru get caught. Well they are on pay roll from foreigners and they are doing their job, atleast they are loyal to some one. But they have forgotten most important thing which is interest of their own country and rest of its population. Anyways I will deal with them in another blog.

After long spell of mayhem and killings J&K again started its walk towards peace after NDA govt under Mr Vajpayee gave them one of the fairest poll. After terrorist attacks in September 2001 in US, things changed for Pakistan. As US woke up after going through the pain which India is suffering from many years. The global war on terror is been beneficial for India and whole world pressurized Pakistan to stop supporting terrorism. People of Kashmir liked taste of peace after so many years. Economy started booming, Hurriyat broke up between so called hardliners or anti national terrorists like Geelani and so called moderates like Mirwaiz Omar Farooq. Well for India none of these Hurriyat people are of any use unless they have some divine revelation of stop spreading hate or getting killed one by one.

Now after successful elections in 2003, J&K was again going for election in this year. And here comes politics of self interest which brought situation to this level. Let me give you some background of political parties in Kashmir Valley who are supposed to have belief in Indian democracy. The main culprit for this current fiasco is PDP of Mufti Muhammad Saeed. Mr Mufti was home minister in VP Singh’s govt. He is the same union home minister, who some says staged kidnapping of his own daughter so that some dreaded terrorists in Kashmir can be freed. Well its just typical Indian politician behavior and I would have ignored that since lots of time has gone by. But my doubts against him and his daughter Mehbuba Mufti as anti nationals and terrorists sympathizers are getting stronger day by day. His party put forward many mind boggling demands which were not even made by dreaded terrorists. One of them is allowing Pakistani currency in Indian Kashmir. I mean what?? Who can say things like that unless they have very sinister, anti national design behind it?

Shri Amarnath Shrine Land Diversion Issue and Real Agenda of Anti Nationals:-

Yatra to Shri Amarnath dham is not started after Buta Malik discovered the route for some 150 years ago. There is a record of pilgrimage to Shri Amarnath Dham in various Hindu scriptures. The real story behind finding of the route involves story of a sage who gave a bag full of coal to Buta Malik so that he can cook food. But as Buta Malik arrives in his home and opens the coal bag he finds gold instead of coal. After seeing gold in bag he wanted to thank that sage and he went searching for him. He couldn't found the sage but he found alternate route to Shri Amarnath Dham. Hindu pilgrims involved family of Buta Malik into management of annual yatra and still give portion of offerings to his present family for doing this favor to them. Have you seen anything like this in world except India?? Shri Amarnath Shrine land diversion issue, which is the starting point of this time wasting anti national agitation, was just a routine land transfer for giving pilgrims more facilities in hostile environment. This land diversion was done to provide temporary pre fabricated shelter to pilgrims in hostile living conditions.

Mufti Sayeed's PDP which came to rule after elections transferred hundreds of acres of forest land to create Baba Gulam Shah Badshah university in Rajori, no one objected to it. Than he ordered cutting of thousands of trees for creation of Mughal Road, no one objected to it. Even though cutting of these trees have created question mark on existence of highly endangered “ Wild Markhor Goat” species. These goats are just 200-300 in numbers in whole world and have been declared highly endangered species. But why Mufti and his ilk will care about endangered species when his like minded anti nationals have driven out another endangered species by name Kashmiri Pandits from Kashmir valley? Than he transferred hundreds of acres for Islamic University in Awantipur, no one objected to it. Land to these two universities was given free of cost but when Jammu demanded similar concession for Sharda Peeth University, it was denied. Than he transferred lots of land for various other commercial use and no one objected to it. The land he transferred was also forest land but on one objected because it was right thing to do. But suddenly when some 100 acre of land was transferred for use of pilgrims than whole hell broke lose. His own ministers transferred the land but since he received orders from Islamabad so started playing part in conspiracy created by anti nationals. His daughter along with Omar Abdullah said its their land and they wont give it to any one even for creating temporary shelters.

I once regarded Omar Abdullah as a good leader and even included him in my would be prime minister's list. But after seeing his ugly face in this land transfer issue, he seems to me just like some petty corrupt politician, who can go to any length for getting some stupid votes. Anyways he decided to play regional politics knowing fully that he is just playing in the hands of separatists and anti nationals. When you already have bigger terrorists for the same cause why would someone listen to him? I guess for this decision he and India going to pay heavily. Well I am done with Abdullah.

All these anti nationals along with Hurriyat created fear in Kashmir's general population that permanent colonies are being created in Kashmir and this would change demography of Kashmir. The Hurriyat and all anti nationals failed to remember that its them who changed demography of Kashmir for real since 1989 after driving Pandits out of valley. At that time none of the local Kashmir population protested. Well leave local population, no one in India protested on plight of these Pandits who are living like refugees in their own land.

After our spineless central government bowed down to these separatists false propaganda and canceled the allotment of land people in Jammu instantly felt agitated. There have been no riots in Jammu or any other communal clashes although people were provoked so many times. But denying land for use of temporary use for pilgrimage touched raw nerve of the population and Jammuites belonging to all religions and political affiliations joined the protests against injustice meted out to them for past 60 years.

Even though the Kashmiri anti nationals got what they wanted through concealment of land order transfer they were just waiting for another false propaganda to stoke up hatred against Jammu and rest of India. Kashmir for the first time got the taste of another similar agitation where some people from Jammu attacked trucks from Kashmir. I don’t deny this fact and this happens in all agitations where vehicle on the road become target for mobs. Anti national PDP and Hurriyat lost no opportunity in creating another false propaganda of economic blockade of Kashmir. Even though Army cleaned up the National Highway pretty soon, the anti nationals started March to Muzaffarabad in PoK. One of their leaders Sheikh Abdul Aziz got his punishment of highest order when police got rid of him during those protests. This made whole Hurriyat realize that there number is not far from list of dead so they back tracked from that false march and start shouting in different tunes.

Now you can see the whole game plan from anti nationals. They started their whole activities on false issue and sustained it through false issue and now they don’t talk about it any more because they used those to their favors and now showing their true colors where we can see SA Geelani saying, he is Pakistani. They just wanted a chance to create trouble as its their nature not to remain peaceful. They have been successful in making relatively peaceful Kashmir to troubled region again. Even though Kashmir and its people sustain on us tax payers from India than also instead of being grateful they shout slogans against us. I have solution for their and ours troubles. Just read on..

Solution for Kashmir Problem:-

My solution to Kashmir Problem involves 5 points. I know it wont go down well with so called secularists but for any right minded Indian these points may prove to end what we have as every day problem in Kashmir. As per me the best solution to Kashmir problem includes in making Kashmir non exclusive state and treat it as per with other Indian states. My five point program includes

1) Making LoC as international border between India and Pakistan. It means that Kashmir’s part which is already there with Pakistan will remain with them. Those Kashmiris who don’t like to live in India and hate us can simply go and live over there.

So if people like SA Geelani and his supporters want we can give them free pass to go and live in Pakistan. All fanatics who think Pak as their country should just go and live there. Let's see that time, if Pakistan accepts them or not. They should be given three options, a) Stay in India Peacefully b) Go and live in Pakistan and do whatever they want over there c) just get killed or live in prison. Its as simple as that. I don't know why these cheerleaders of Pakistan want to merge with Pakistan when they are seeing what happened with Mujahirs and what is happening in PoK. The whole world is saying Pakistan is a failed state and these morons are cheering for Pakistan.

I am compromising with our traditional stand of undivided Kashmir which is just there on Indian maps but its becoming a practical reality is a distant thing. The whole Kashmir as you see in map can be ours only in case of chaos created by breaking up of Pakistan in four different countries of Balochistan, Sindh, NWFP and Pakistani Punjab. But it doesn’t seem possible in near future so lets be realistic and settle for what we can have. At the same time we should make efforts to take land back from China. It will be a little easier with China as no religious extremism is involved. It would be a diplomatic effort.

2) Abolish article 370 and let people of India become legitimate part of the state electoral process. This will bring majority of the anti nationals in Kashmir to minority.

3) Divide J&K into three states of Jammu, Kashmir and Laddakh.

4) Just kill those found to be involved in anti national activities. When China kills Jehadi militants in Xinxiang province than no country on earth criticizes them than why should we bother about criticism.

5) Elections in J&K like any other Indian state should be free and fair.

Independent Kashmir is not an option because independent Kashmir cant survive and any level headed person knows that. Pakistan through its proxies like SA Geelani will annex Kashmir as it has done with PoK.

Greater Autonomy for Kashmir is not an option as I dont know what else we can give as autonomy. So if given autonomy in all aspects of life isnt working fine then just take it back and make this state as any other state of India.

There is a new talk among so called intellectuals of Indian secularism. I mentioned Arundhati "Begger" Roy earlier. Now we have Vir Sanghvi, Swaminathan A. Aiyar and Jug Suraiya included in this list. They say just give Kashmir away because it seems their majority wants it to be like that. But my dear intellectuals it was the same situation in Punjab, Assam, Mizoram, Nagaland, Manipur, Tripura and even Naxals wants it in all over India so are you guys going to suggest the same thing if some bunch of fanatics and anti nationals get together and demand something from you? If some jehadies get succeeded in getting what they want in Kashmir than whats the guarantee that some Jehadi from bordering area of Assam and Bengal wont start for the same demand. What is the guarantee that some LTTE like organization will also demand the same thing? What is the guarantee that some Khalistan Zindabad Force starts demanding the same thing in Punjab? What is the guarantee that some minority dominated districts here and in India wont start demanding the same thing? These so called intellectuals are just bunch of thugs who wants to comment on any thing in the world. They just think to be different from present prevailing mood they have to resort to cheap gimmicks and risking national integrity to gain some publicity.

Solution to Kashmir problem lies in making it non exclusive as any other Indian state and this policy will change the face of Kashmir. The current agitation for Amarnath Shrine is not a fight between Hindus and Muslims but its fight between Nationals and patriots verses anti national parasites. Those who compare Kashmir with Tibet Issue of China miss one important fact. Tibet was never part of China’s Geography and never linked culturally with China while Kashmir from time immemorial is in ethos of India. We already suffered one partition of our motherland but not any more. These solution require the will of a nation to stand as one in case of situations like this but when we have so many anti national, publicity hungry secular columnists and intellectuals, we will continue to face all sorts of difficulties as these parasites and viruses are making India sick from with in. the sooner we get rid of these viruses the better its for health of the nation. Arise and awake Indians. Take destiny of this nation in your hand. There should be only one Passion.. Rise of this Great Nation…

Hemant Dubey

Vande Mataram

Jai Hind.

One Abhinav Among A Billion In 80 Years: Is This What We Deserve As A Proud Emerging Power?

2008-08-12T18:01:00.003-05:00

Abhinav Bindra you made me and entire honest Indian population around the world proud. Is it just a coincidence that we have "Singh is King " movie ruling chart of the box offices and Bindra a Sikh ruling hearts of a billion plus population. I have often wondered about why the nation of a billion plus population doesn't even have a single gold in individual events with participation history in Olympic Games which goes to 80 years.

Although modern Olympic Games were officially started in 1896, India started her journey to become best in sports in1928, Amsterdam Olympics. We played our best in field hockey and won eight Olympic gold medals, the last one around 28 years ago in Moscow Olympics. Now see the absolute disgusting turn of events where we have even failed to qualify for the present Olympics. Hockey being the so called national sport should have been given the priority over everything, but when we have our failed Cricket Superstars ruling ad campaigns who cares about anything else.

I cant say all but majority of Indian kids have played cricket once in their lifetime. I used to play too. Cricket became hugely popular after our win in 1983 world cup. Another factor which comes to my mind behind the popularity of sports like cricket is because its really cheap as far as initial investment goes and you don't need any big ground to play it out. You can play it any where. Majority of the Indians being not so well financially looked cricket as their national pass time sport. When you have your stomach to worry about than I guess you won't think about any sports as you career option because you know that in the end, the big burocratic and corrupt setup will kill your ambition and you will be left with nothing in the end.

Because of the employment reasons majority of Indian middle class parents pushed their children to study more and more so that they can have a meaning of livelihood with them. I guess most of us have the same story. Even if someone did well in sports they knew that their parents wont agree with their idea of becoming sportsperson as sports except cricket isn't known to many as means of earning some money. I guess our parents were right in this regard as there was really less money and there were a lot of things to do with that limited fund.

The successive Indian governments which have shown their callous attitude towards even providing basic amenities like education, health, drinking water and electricity to their general population then no one can expect them to provide some best athletic facilities so that India can win some medals in international competitions. You can check any particular sports federation in India and you will find some stupid corrupt political thug ruling that federation and treating it as his personal property for granting favors. The sports complexes around India have become Goonda producing complexes and no one gives a damn about that. Well when you have your livelihood to worry about than who cares about what is happening in some sport complex. The officials and politicians have become so corrupt that they denied one promising woman weight lifter "Monica Devi" to participate in 2008 Olympics. They charged her for taking banned drugs but recent tests again shown that she wasn't taking any drugs and it was some stupid personal rivalry and vested interests which denied India a chance for another medal along with Bindra.

There is no hue and cry in media over this open assault on the nation's soul where a honest promising woman athlete and subsequently the nation gets denied a chance for a medal in Olympic by some corrupt officials. If this thing can happen with a athlete of such a high repute then you can imagine what can happen to a ordinary citizen and that's why sometimes I thank my parents to keep me on the track of education and nothing else. In India everything has become a politics and like they did in recent trust votes politicians can go to any length to earn some more money. They don't have shame and their skin has become so thick that we can make them live along rhinos in Kaziranga National Park.

Abhinav Bindra's success is his personal success where no Indian or Indian government can take claim of even doing anything for him except giving him an Indian passport. He could manage to achieve what he has because of determination and resources provided by his father. His father saw his unique talent as early as he was some 7 years old and harnessed his potential in that direction. Since his father was resourceful, he could arrange Abhinav's coaching in Germany and for that training government of India paid nothing. It was a personal effort of a proud and resourceful father and his determined kid. And you can see the result with this Gold Medal.

My question is, when some Abhinav, after getting training in Germany can shoot for Gold than why you or I or our future generations can't do it here in India if we have facilities. I guess if it was there than we wouldn't have waited for this Gold for past 80 years. The government which should have provided athlete like him world class facilities in India, some times back went on blocking the bullet supplies for shooting championships all over India. As these bullets are not made in India they had to be imported and government said its against national security. How silly these arguments are when we have Dowd and ISI smuggling all RDX and Kalashnikovs and their bullets all over India under the nose of the government. Well better sense prevailed and the supplies were restored.

An interesting fact is China was nothing in Olympic Games until 1984. I am not a big fan of China but I admire their strong will as a Nation. They have got a national character and when they decide they have to go behind something they will just declare an open war sort of thing for that. That's another story with Human Rights and data manipulation but keeping discussion relevant to this topic I just liked their strategy for winning the ultimate crown in Olympics. They first focused on some specific sports like gymnastics, diving, badminton, table tennis and shooting. You can see their record that they have become one of the best teams in these sports. They were second behind US in Olympic medals in last 2004 Athens Olympics and they are trying to become number one in this one. In such a short span they have achieved a great feat and that's because of dedicated, mostly non corrupt officials in sport field and a national desire to become best. I guess mostly the sports officials in India are there to eat and suck player's flesh and blood. Indian sport officials don't know anything about that sport but they corrupt these places by playing dirty politics and indulging in corruption which amounts to crores of rupees.

We have achieved tremendous success in information technology because government wasn't aware of what is going on. India's problems are its politicians and corrupt officials. First we have to kick out all politicians ruling the different sport federation and replace them with former athletes of respective fields, as they will understand the need of the players better than anyone else. There is no need of separate sports ministry in India. This ministry is of no use. Its another layer of eating into funds for different sports federations. Instead finance minister should directly give amount to these federations every year in annual budget. We should initially concentrate more on few sports which involves less physical strength like shooting and archery, than gradually move on to others like badminton, table tennis and kayaking. If we start preparing now we have chance of winning atleast 10 gold medals in these fields in next 2012 Olympics.

I hope general public will start finding more heroes in other sports than in drastically inconsistent Cricket team. We should support Hockey, Football and other teams where we have chance of winning. All sport teams in India except cricket are self made. All they need is our support. Cricket has become like a rich spoilt child with no responsibility at all. This is the time when we should shift our attention to other neglected children in family and provide them with all necessary things so that they can come first in their class and make us all proud. I want many more Abhinavs in all sports in India.. I don't want to wait for another 80 years for another gold medal in Olympic. Now is the time for us .. Now is the time for youth of India to show what we are capable of to the whole world. Arise and Awake Indians .. Take Destiny of this great nation in your own hand..

Hemant Dubey

Vande Mataram

Jai Hind

How To Reform Politics In India: Bottom Up Approach Is the Only Solution..

2008-08-08T19:09:00.001-05:00

There are sometimes in your life when you just want to throw out something like you throw out garbage from your home. You get a broom or a vacuum cleaner and then check every corner of your home and courtyard, make that stinky garbage come out from those difficult corners and floor then collect that garbage, throw it in dumpster and forget about it. I want to do a similar thing with all these corrupt and traitor politicians, officers and citizens of India, as these types of people are not more than garbage for me or for any law abiding patriotic Indian. I want to bundle all corrupts and traitors in some big bag and throw them in Indian Ocean. But like you clean your home every day from garbage, cleaning corruption will also be a similar process. Like a good housewife you have to clean your home daily otherwise that garbage would try to make its presence permanent. But for doing that you need a strong hand which can take the pain of cleaning it everyday so that all other members of the family can enjoy a pleasant stay in home.

Just think of yourself as that good housewife and all honest Indians as your family members and all these corrupt thugs as the garbage and you will know what I am talking about. My frustrations are not over yet. Deep down inside its hurting my pride as an Indian when I see so many corrupts from all political parties of India making an open loot of honest tax payers money. All these jobless politicians enjoy VIP security, plush bungalows in all prime properties in all states, uninterrupted power supplies, good schools for their kids and clean mineral water bottles to drink and leave common citizens like us to fight for each and everything in our life. These politicians survive on our money like parasite with no accountability towards common citizen. When inflation is reaching some 15 years high and prices of basic survival things like food is increasing every day these corrupt thugs are busy in paying each other crores of rupees in bribes. These politicians don't care about what you and me go through as an ordinary citizen, because they have rarely lived that ordinary life and those who in past lived like that have become immune to your and my problems as they have forgotten from where they have come from.

Politicians are a special breed of humans. There is a sentence which I read long while back regarding politicians. It says " A politician is a person who promises to build a bridge even if there is no river there." This definition fits any politician anywhere in the world most of the times. People may say that if you are pretending to know this much about politics then why don't you join the game and then criticize. Well good question and I guess I have a good answer. I was born into a lower middle class family, where much emphasis was given on getting good education and become something good professionally so that you can earn livelihood. I guess I chose a safe but wrong profession in engineering. I should have gone for IAS and I know that would have all my well wishers really happy. Why IAS? Because being an IAS/IPS gives you the exposure to the big political bosses in short time and from there you can affect life of so many common people positively and get their affection and respect. After that it becomes easy to get a Loksabha ticket from a party and fight elections. Being IAS/IPS makes you uncommon and gives lots of scope for nurturing your constituency. If I start by getting membership of any political party then I may remain just a member throughout my life that is just going to shout slogans when some big guy wants me to. Financial condition is not that strong where I can just go on and do something of my own. I know all what I said is going to be counted like excuses but still this is the case from my side. So I decided to get myself attached to the things which I can do by just being ordinary like donating for a worthy cause, making people aware of the real situation and things like that. As of now this is the only thing in my hand. I don't know the future but I am eagerly waiting for it. I would like to open a school, a hospital and an old age home for poor when I have enough money to do so. Anyways I guess its enough about me.

Well politics which was meant to serve the common mass has become a tool of exploiting the same. There is so much our elected representative can do for us by just doing their job properly but still they don't do it. the only thing on which they all agree inside parliament is when some bill comes up for raising the perks and benefits for themselves like how many free phone calls they will be allowed to make, how many train and plane ticket reservation they can have for free and stuff like that. Only communists oppose it for the sake of opposing it as they know that this bill is going to pass and I guess its one of their guilty pleasures since they like opposing thing. There have been so many cases of serious crimes against so many of our sitting MPs and MLAs. If anyone of us sees their behavior inside parliament house than head just wants to get buried in mud for thoughts that we elected these types of rouge elements to rule us who doesn't even know how to talk properly. Corruption runs deep in their vain as if they have some divine birth right to loot common public funds. These guys haven't even spared fodder for cattle, boots for soldier and policemen, wheat for poor in India from their list of scams. I sometimes wonder how these guys can have so much time for systematically looting so many public funds but no time to work of their poor constituencies. They come like some migratory bird once in a five year in your constituency for not to be seen again for another five years if government completes its term. Well I guess you know it all very well.

But why these politicians in whom the common people, who vote, put so much trust just betray their cause without even feeling guilty of their actions? How politicians skin becomes so thick that they can't feel the pain of the common masses? Why they just become disconnected with reality on ground? And how shameless these people are that even after doing nothing for 5 years they again come and stand in front of your door? well that's why they are special species and that's why we should control the quality of people who are going to govern us as politicians. When an IAS/IPS officer works so hard to get his job than why shouldn't we have some criteria for those who are going to give orders to these officers? Its not like that an IAS/IPS officer doesn't do any corruption but still they have some morality left in them. Having high education is no guarantee that a person wont indulge in corrupt and immoral activities but atleast that education makes a person aware about what is wrong and what is right.

An educated politician wont sign off some paper without reading and having understood all pros and cons. He don't have to rely on other people to make him understand the real situation. So what would be that level of education desired in a politician at any level of governance? My heart goes for a graduate but I know many people who are going to govern a village in Panchayat don't have luxury of attending the college. That's why we should have separate level of education at different level of governance. For Panchayats it can be matriculation or 10^th pass as minimum. For Nagarpalika's in semi urban areas it should be high school or 12^th pass as minimum. For urban area municipalities, state legislative assemblies and parliament it should be graduation as minimum education criteria. Well having that minimum education is first step than those who are getting elected should go to morality classes once in a year for rest of their five years as people's representative. These morality or people governance classes should be held by institutions of repute such as IIMs or other major business schools. The curriculum of these morality classes should include one lecture on religious aspects regarding corruption from every religion present in India. It can be collection of selective quotes from Bhagwat Geeta or other Ved and Upnishads, Quran, Bible, Buddhist and Jain literature, Guru Granth Sahib and Zend-Avesta. This class will make our politician aware about commonality in all religions against corruption in public life.

Another addition to this process would be we should be having an exam on the pattern of IAS for people who are interested in joining politics. Those who pass out from this exam should be absorbed by political parties in India. There should be a percentage of these pass outs in every party based on their primary membership. Some of you may laugh at me but see when MBAs and engineers from top colleges are so sought after in corporate class than why those who make policies for all of us shouldn't have any body of higher caliber. When an MBA or engineer is given so many responsibilities in corporate world than why our political parties don't have the same competent fresh blood every year. This will also solve the problem of youths not joining politics. These political parties can go on and take interviews of these candidates like any other company do on campus interview. The seats should be very limited so that they remain high in demand.

Another thing we can do is to make laws related to corruption crimes for anyone should be harsh so that anyone who is indulging in these activities would know that he or she is going to get a quick and severe punishment for what they are doing now. There should be separate courts for prosecution of corruption related crimes until we see reduction in these crimes. Common people should be encouraged to file complains against any government servant working in RTOs, passport offices, PWDs, SEBs, railway reservations and other departments like that.

I don't know if this will be a guarantee against all corruption that we face in our daily life but still when rulers are good than the workers or government servants working under them will also become somewhat well. All the above measures will take care of the Government related people to an extent but what about common people like us? We the common mass of India is also responsible in the same way. That's why when we cry for our rights, we should be ready to perform our duties for the nation. The least we can do is to go and vote on the voting day as per our choice. Whom you vote is not what I am looking for but you should stand up and be counted when the nation demands it from you. And that's what I meant by bottom up approach. We the common citizens are at bottom of governance pyramid but its us for whom the government is there. Government is there to serve us and not to rule us like kings. Government is there to make our life easy and not to complicate. This is an era of customer service, when you don't get that proper customer service from any of your service provider than you register your protest and think of changing the service provider. Something similar to this is needed when you get a dumb government. We have to make our fellow citizens aware about importance of their votes. Vote is the only thing you have to register your protest in democracy. Use it to change your service provider if you are not happy with them. Arise and awake Indians..

Vande Mataram

Jai Hind

Extraordinary Problem and Its Extraordinary Solution: Best Way To Tackle Terrorism In India

2008-07-28T21:48:00.001-05:00

Till now after reading my previous blogs you all might have a little idea about my writings. I try to formulate a solution for a given problem faced by our nation. Many times these solutions may not be as good as I think of them to be but still I like to try and think about all which is going on in our surroundings and issues which affect our daily lives. I know I am nobody but still I like to spread my thoughts and that’s why I write to you all who know me. You guys are the best judge of my thoughts. I don’t like to be pessimist and always try to look for the positive side. But terrorism is one of the thing about which I can hardly see anything positive. This current blog is been written after thinking of many days where I tried to think different aspects of this problem. Best thing would have been ending of a ideal Bollywood movie where the bad terrorist would return to home after persuasion from his family, friend and lover and lead a normal life. But unfortunately real life is very much different than real one.

There are certain things which you should think before reading this article further on. These terrorists are not sparing anyone. Earlier they were just attacking police and army posts and taking their revenge against India. They shifted their pattern in Kashmir and Punjab in 1980s and rest of India after Mumbai bomb blasts of 1993. In this new pattern they killed civilians on streets, bazaars and trains. Than attacked places of worships and now with this Hospital blasts in Ahemdabad they have added another very soft target to inflict maximum killings and mayhem. According to latest new reports terrorists planted the bomb in the car which was continuously following the ambulance which was bringing blast victims to hospital. They blasted car in hospital to kill as many innocents as they can through that blast. Now after this act of heinous crime nothing is safe in India. So you never know when the next blast is going to rip your or your loved ones body apart anywhere in India. We are left with very few choices; either you can just sit and pray that you or your loved ones are never going to be victim of this heinous crime against humanity or you can learn by seeing deaths of other people’s loved ones and act now to become more responsible citizen and perform your duties for the nation. Problem is we in India never think of those who are blown apart in these blasts as our own people. Since we and our loved ones are not killed so we will just sit or offer prayers in our places of worship. We act as a passive society which just waits for another bomb blast and speak the same dialogue again and again after any of these acts. Just see our honorable home minister Shivraj Patil. There have been many bomb blasts in his tenure as 4 years of Home Minister and he repeated the same dialogue of not letting any culprit go unpunished for these crimes against citizens of India. Now its altogether a different matter that no prime suspect of any of these blasts has been caught yet. Even though the one who is inside the jail waiting for his death penalty to be executed for past 2 years (Afzal Guru: convicted in Parliament Attack Case of 2003) by authorities, is been kept alive because this stupid government think that it will anger some people of a particular community. I want to ask here if anybody who feels anger by seeing a convicted terrorist like Afzal to be hanged till death, then shouldn’t we identify that person as future terrorist. Why someone will feel anger by seeing a criminal getting his punishment? And if this government of Sonia Maino thinks that a particular community’s member will think like that than isn’t this government is the most communal government ever ruled in India? This government is saying that all members of a particular community sympathize with convicted terrorist and in my view it’s the worst thing you can do to someone.

So anyway Congress and its spineless leaders are not going to be in my good books because of their deeds against this nation. I just want that we should not wait for another bomb blast to happen which involves casualty of our loved ones. For me all law abiding Indian citizens are loved ones and anyone’s unnatural death because of crimes like this makes the same impact every time. Terrorism is not an ordinary crime and solution to this problem is also not going to be ordinary. Sometimes we have to swallow some bitter pill so that we can be cured of a major illness. My solution to this major illness is the same bitter pill. We can think over it and make our government pass this law or we can just wait for another blast to happen and than cry.

I don’t consider terrorists and their sympathizers as humans because they are involved in inhuman acts. Since they are not humans so there cant be any human rights for them. These terrorists are like mad dogs and we kill mad dogs if we find out about them, since there is a danger from these mad dogs to common society. But there is a little difference between dogs and humans. In humans we have something very special which is known to all of us as our families and close friends. We share our grief, sorrow and pains with them. Families and close friends most of the times act as support structure for any individual and most of the times all family members know whats going on with other members life. Parents watch their kids and hope for their wellbeing and most of the times they know whats going on with their kids. If not parents than close friends and siblings are aware of all or some of the mess which we have in our life.

I would like to propose for a anti terror law which gives the same punishment to immediate family members and close friends as of convicted terrorist which is death. Please don’t get mad at me as this is the only effective solution which can prevent bomb blasts from happening. This type of law will act as a deterrent in would be bomb planter’s mind about the consequences of his act. He or she will think thousands of times before planting any explosive device anywhere. Just finding and killing a hardcore terrorist wont solve the problem now. Because those who plant bombs to kill innocents don’t have any regard for their lives. They don’t care about their own lives. But when life of terrorist’s family members are involved, who most of the time know what their daughters and sons are upto, he or she wont try to do such type of inhuman act majority of the times.

We can have certain provisions which can give pardon to a family. Most important of this provision would be if family members themselves inform law authorities about their terrorist minded children than they should get immunity from punishment. This law will work wonders in many ways as parents will start taking care of their own kids so that they don’t fall in wrong hands and all would be terrorists think about damage involved after they get caught and convicted for terror crimes.

There should be a separate police and courts to tackle this type of problem, which should directly work under a committee headed by army chief. Involving Army chief will give assurance of impartiality for those who are getting convicted under new anti terror law. Legal experts can define several options which can prevent punishment for innocents. Terrorism is violent but more of the fear psychological crime which tries to feed fear in common citizen’s mind. We should have such a law which takes this fear to terrorist and their sympathizer’s mind. They should know that they are going to pay heavily for their inhuman acts. It should be the terrorist who live in fear and not the common masses of our country. Because its terrorist who are doing bad things and not the common masses.

This law will solve all types of terror by Jehadi fundamentalist, ULFAs, Maoists, Naxalites, NSCNs and likes of them.

Another must thing to do is form all India school curriculum and all children irrespective of their faiths and communities should be taught same course throughout India. If some parents wants their kids to have religious education than they can go there after school hours or on weekends. If some parents want their children to become Pandits, Maulavis or priests then there should be a curriculum dedicatedly dealing with religious education in all religion. But course taught should be from one central government authority and government may take help of all religious leader heads for making that curriculum. This type of thing would promote national harmony and will prevent kids from getting carried away with unhealthy thoughts.

I think I said enough. But still in my view these are the best solutions for terror free India. If you like it then please try to circulate it around. Please think on what kind of India we want for our future generation. Think and act. Time is running out. Arise and awake Indians..

Vande Mataram
Jai Hind
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UPA Won Trust Vote Using Corrupt Thugs : Who is Responsible?

2008-07-23T17:20:00.001-05:00

The UPA and “Honest” Manmohan Singh won trust vote in parliament. My head wants itself to be buried deep with shame as I see what kind of corrupt thugs are ruling this great nation of ours. I wasn’t feeling like writing for quite some time even though many burning issues caught my attention like Baba Amarnath Land Transfer or hiking the creamy layer limit for OBCs or defeat of CPM in local body polls. I thought what I can do by just writing some piece in blog. Who is going to read that even if I write truth there? But as always it’s the only way I can remove frustrations from inside. I watched with horror and disgust some MPs throwing 3 crore cash inside parliament and telling us all that its bribe money given to them by Amar Singh of SP for just being absent from trust vote.

A sickening disgusting chill ran though my spinal cord and I started wondering whats wrong with us Indians as a society. A society which is producing so many corrupt leaders, A society which doesn’t give any value to merit, a society which just remains a mute spectator of extortion of the powerless by powerful, a society which is just running behind money and not thinking about the ways to get that, a society which reads scriptures, goes to temples, churches, mosques and gurudwaras daily but don’t hesitate in doing heinous crimes for sake of power and money, a society which doeant believe in paying taxes honestly and cry when they see some politicians or officials making tons of money through corrupt means, a society which just believes in getting its work done for railway tickets, passports, driving licenses, water and electricity connections by paying bribes, a society which worships women as gods in various forms but still kill someone’s daughters and sisters for dowry and the unborn girl child, a society which can spend hundreds of rupees on pizzas, multiplex movies but shy away from feeding empty stomach of less fortunate, a society which looks down upon people who earn their honest living by working as laborer, gardener, waiter, vegetable vendor and domestic helps as if they are not human enough to have that self respect, a society which just cares about someone who has money and power but never worries about their means to get that money. We have become a big society of hypocrites where moral values and merit doesn’t count for anything. Where the one who says truth to be told keep quite or made silent by murders or threats.

I know we all know about this but my problem is we all are not doing anything about this. Infact why I am telling you all, I myself is not doing anything about it. Its so disgusting to even think about what type of people are ruling us and being made important by this stupid electronic and print media. The likes of Lalus, Mulayams, Amar Singhs who are nose deep in corruption are being projected as savior of masses. One day one of these will become prime minister and than only god knows whats going to happen to India. These politicians have enough money to protect the government but I am sure these fellows don’t have money to spend on food for empty stomachs, drinking water, electricity, health care and roads for millions of poor of this nation. But I don’t blame these politicians. Its us the common masses are the only people to blame. We have allowed ourselves to be manipulated by these corrupt thugs on basis of caste, community and religion. These corrupt thugs are product of this hypocrite and corrupt society of ours and unless the morality content of common people of India is going to increase, I am sure we are going to be ruled by people which this society deserves.

All these corrupt thugs are not aliens from Mars. They are from among us. Its us who are responsible for this mess around us. Unless we as a society do something about this we are doomed to see many more Amar Singhs, Mulayams and Lalus ruling us. Arise and Awake.. Take destiny of this great nation in your hand.. Don’t think that you are not going to affected by these corrupt politicians. We as a society have become so mentally bankrupt that unless someone is going to kill or harass some of our own family member, we think that we don’t have any problem in our country. Today it may be your neighbor but tomorrow its going to be your turn and at that time please don’t expect anyone to come and help you. You have to deal with that problem like your neighbor whom you left alone in their struggle. Unless we are going to think every Indian as our neighbor we are going to be doomed as a nation.

Vande Mataram
Hemant Dubey

मेरी कवितायें - ये बन्धन

2008-06-06T17:00:00.002-05:00

जैसे पंछी भोर मे गाए , जैसे पंख खोल उड़ जाए ,
ये अनुभव ऐसा है जैसे , कोई गंगा नहा के आए !

जैसे भंवरा ख़ुद ही आए , एक फूल मे गुम हो जाए ,
ये बन्धन तो ऐसा है जैसे , हृदय रुके और साँसे थम जाए !

वो आवाज़ सुनाई दे और हृदय के तार बज जाए,
ये संगीत ऐसा है जैसे , कान्हा अधरों पे मुरली सजाये !

सूखी धरती सावन को पाये , जैसे चकोर चाँद को चाहे ,
ये प्रेम ऐसा है जैसे , भक्त और इश्वर एक हो जाए !!

"भूमी-पुत्र "

मेरी कवीतायें - मेरा खुदा क्यों गलत हो गया ?

2008-06-04T14:55:00.003-05:00

दील की ये जलन कीसी को दिखाई नहीं जाती ,
बात ही कुछ ऐसी है की बताई नहीं जाती,
ख़ुद ही पी रहा हूँ इस ज़हर को हँसते हँसते ,
पलक अगर भीगी हो तो उठाई नही जाती !

क्या ग़लत कर गया ये भी जान ना पाया ,
अचानक रूठ गया जो था मेरा साया ,
मरते हुए भी निकला तू जान है मेरी ,
मेरे हर पल की ये खुशी दिन रात है मेरी !!

रोका नही फ़िर भी उसने, ये खंजर चला दिया ,
मेरे अरमानों का प्यारा सा, मन्दिर गिरा दिया ,
क्या मिल गया उसे इससे, ये मैं समझ नही पाया ,
इन्सान हूँ खिलौना नहीं , क्यों ये वो समझ नही पाया !

दर्द भरी ये आवाज़ शायद खुदा सुन भी लेता ,
उस बेरहम को ये चीख सुनाई नहीं देती ,
जिसे मैंने खुदा माना वो ही धोखा दे गया ,
मुहब्बते कहीं ऐसे निभाई नहीं जाती !!

"भूमी-पुत्र "

मेरी कवीतायें - जाने क्यों ?

2008-06-03T11:18:00.004-05:00

जाने क्यों फ़िर कीसी से मैंने प्यार किया ,
जाने क्यों फ़िर कीसी पे मैंने ऐतबार किया ,
सोचा था मिलेगी खुशी ज़िंदगी भर के लीये ,
बस इस चाह के लीये ख़ुद को बेकरार किया !

बह रहे थे आँसूं मेरी आंखों से ,
देख के फ़िर भी उसने मुझपे ये वार किया ,
प्यार करने की सजा ऐसी देगा मेरा साया ,
बस इसी सोच ने मेरा जीना दुश्वार किया !

क्यों मेरे प्यार को खुश नहीं रख पाया मैं ?
उसके काजल के लीये ख़ुद को नहीं जला पाया मैं,
उसके होठों की वो हँसी नहीं बन पाया मैं ,
उसकी बिंदिया की वो चमक नहीं बन पाया मैं १

उसके माथे का वो टीका नहीं बन पाया मैं,
उसकी पायल के वो घुंघरू नहीं बन पाया मैं,
उसकी आंखों की शरारत नहीं बन पाया मैं,
उसकी साँसों की वो महक नहीं बन पाया मैं!

दील ही नही रहा फ़िर ये जीना कैसा ?
साँसों के यूं चलने का मतलब कैसा ?
इस तड़प मैं यूं जलने का मतलब कैसा ?
इस ज़हर को यूं पीने का मतलब कैसा ?

पर ये उम्मीद है के यूं मरती भी नहीं ,
उसकी यादों ने हर वक्त दील को पार किया,
पता नहीं कब आ जाए कब्र पे मिलने ,
आँखे खोल के हर पल बस उसका इंतज़ार किया !!

"भूमी - पुत्र "

Gloomy Thoughts : Whats The Way Out?

2008-06-02T22:40:00.004-05:00

Many people in their life at least once feel that life is really worthless and they dont have any point in living this painful experience. They feel that its better to finish it off in once than to go through the same torture every single minute. Well to an extent this feeling is justified in my view as Julius Ceaser once said that " I may find a man who is willing to give his life for me but it would be really difficult to find someone who is willing to endure the pain and fight for the goal." I guess most of us will agree to this statement. Well I am human and I have my share of these thoughts too when sometimes I felt that what I am doing with my life and its better to put a full stop than to living the life in all commas. But I again stumble upon the bigger picture where I think of this broader question "Is my life only my life? or Is it such a waste that I should just quit and end it? or why not devout this life to some meaningful purposes atleast that would something in somebody's life? or why to waste whatever I have learned till now and why try to solve so many burning issues pending in front of humanity?".

Well some of you might be laughing that this guy who isnt even able to solve his life's small problem is talking of devoting life to some bigger cause. But I saw many instances where a negative incident in someone's life changed the whole world. Whether its throwing of Mahatma Gandhi from train or insult of Chankya by Dhananand or insult of Goswami Tulsidas by his wife. In all these instances these great men learned from the mistake of others who were insulting them and saw their mission in greater things.

Thats what my thought is. Why to waste this precious gift of God. Why not start the change from with in and get devoted to something bigger in life. These gloomy thoughts have their origin in many things but result is same. These thoughts drive a healthy mind for doing stupid and crazy things which it wont be doing when situation was normal. I often wonder why the love affairs which break many times dont break on good note. Why there is so much abuse for the same person who was apple of your eye sometimes back. May be some situations force either of them to do it where the other one thinks that its better to see their partner happy with some one else than to be unhappy with you throughout the life. But i guess this thinking is wrong because some temporary situation which forced you to take that breakup decision might not be valid one and it may happen that you end up repenting that one decision throughout your life. Many times it happens out of getting something better. But I guess if you live with someone and than leave them just to be with someone better in your thoughts you are taking a selfish decision which is bound to fail. As in matter of hearts selfishness dont have any place. Why these breaks hurt some one so badly that it drives them to do insanely things. When you start that beautiful thing with someone you never think that this beauty is going to end. Well lovers are most optimist or most pessimist people of the world. They dont follow the middle path.

When there is even slight chance of being with each other they become so happy that they forget everything and when something doesnt go their way they just want to destroy the world. I guess this is the special breed of humans. I know by writing it all here isnt going to solve anyone's problem. People will continue to do what they want. These wants till they die are the only source of misery. I want to be a free bird who doesnt care about anything. I want to live life tension free but that doesnt always happen. I am ordinary so my fate is ordinary and it will proceed on its own way. I have only one thing in my hand only one thing which is doing my job properly and I guess rest will be taken care by God. I shouldnt waste my life like this. Its worth is pains if I am able to make even some positive change in someone's life. I dont want to destroy this precious gift of God. I would like to die while doing God's work. He and he alone should decide when he wants to take this thing from me. It was given by him and it would be proper if he takes it own his own. I shouldnt interfere in his process. I should let things take their own course and just float on life's river as he wants me to do.

मेरी कवीताये - दो पल की खुशी

2008-06-01T20:58:00.002-05:00

दो पल की वो देके खुशी , सदीयों रोने को छोड़ गया !
आंखों से गीरती बारीश मे वो , मुझको अकेला छोड़ गया !!

अपनी यादों के खंजर से वो, प्यार भरा दील तोड़ गया !
अरमानों का लहू बहने लगा है , वो रीस-रीस के मरता छोड़ गया !!

कसमे वादे सब भूल गया , वो हाथ झटक यूं छोड़ गया !
जलता हुआ भी देख के मुझको , वो अपना मुह यूं मोड़ गया !!

तपती धूप मे प्यासा छोड़ के , वो सारी बूंदे नीचोड़ गया !
आखरी दांव बस उसपे लगा था , वो मेरा भरोसा तोड़ गया !!

"भूमी-पुत्र"